0 00:00:00,100 --> 00:00:13,000 Downloaded from xPau.se 1 00:00:37,704 --> 00:00:41,004 NANCY: Jared! Why are you upset, honey? 2 00:00:41,250 --> 00:00:42,843 I want my jersey. 3 00:00:42,960 --> 00:00:44,803 Well, it's because it's dirty. 4 00:00:44,878 --> 00:00:46,050 I want it. 5 00:00:50,509 --> 00:00:53,137 You know, today is your first day at school. 6 00:00:53,804 --> 00:00:54,805 What? 7 00:00:56,807 --> 00:00:58,650 You like to play something in particular? 8 00:00:58,934 --> 00:01:00,356 Uh, soccer. 9 00:01:00,435 --> 00:01:02,062 You like to play soccer. And? 10 00:01:02,145 --> 00:01:03,738 And basketball! 11 00:01:04,064 --> 00:01:05,407 What's your favorite color? 12 00:01:06,817 --> 00:01:08,069 Uh... 13 00:01:08,986 --> 00:01:10,408 Uh, blue and yellow. 14 00:01:10,487 --> 00:01:12,239 Blue... And yellow. 15 00:01:12,322 --> 00:01:13,915 And yellow. 16 00:01:14,700 --> 00:01:17,044 What would you like to be when you grow up? 17 00:01:17,119 --> 00:01:19,338 Motorcycle driver! 18 00:01:19,580 --> 00:01:22,880 (SINGING INDISTINCTLY) 19 00:01:25,335 --> 00:01:27,212 Bye! Hi! 20 00:01:35,971 --> 00:01:38,975 NANCY: Jared. You should come down for breakfast. 21 00:01:49,860 --> 00:01:51,737 JARED: I wish none of this had ever happened. 22 00:01:54,448 --> 00:01:57,201 But sometimes, I thank God that it did. 23 00:02:11,923 --> 00:02:13,140 (CAR STARTS) 24 00:03:08,897 --> 00:03:11,366 MARSHALL". Please, repeat after me. Let your light shine. 25 00:03:11,483 --> 00:03:13,076 CONGREGATION: Let your light shine. 26 00:03:13,151 --> 00:03:14,198 MARSHALL: Now, let me see a show of hands 27 00:03:14,277 --> 00:03:17,201 for those of you in this room who are imperfect. 28 00:03:18,532 --> 00:03:19,749 WOMAN: Everybody. 29 00:03:20,200 --> 00:03:21,452 That's right. 30 00:03:21,535 --> 00:03:24,664 And a show of hands for everybody in this room who is perfect. 31 00:03:26,456 --> 00:03:27,958 Nobody. CONGREGATION MEMBER: Amen. 32 00:03:29,334 --> 00:03:33,134 MARSHALL: I am blessed with a beautiful and deeply soulful wife. 33 00:03:34,214 --> 00:03:37,434 And with a fine, upstanding, 34 00:03:39,261 --> 00:03:40,558 and honest son. 35 00:03:41,596 --> 00:03:42,768 I'm a lucky man. 36 00:03:43,807 --> 00:03:45,650 And I'm grateful for those blessings. 37 00:03:58,238 --> 00:04:00,457 Please don't do that. You know that makes me nervous. 38 00:04:02,701 --> 00:04:04,123 What if a truck comes along and hits your arm? 39 00:04:04,202 --> 00:04:06,079 It's never gonna happen. It's happened before. 40 00:04:07,539 --> 00:04:09,758 It has. It has. 41 00:04:41,031 --> 00:04:42,954 AARON: Good morning. Welcome to Love in Action. 42 00:04:43,325 --> 00:04:44,326 Hi. 43 00:04:44,993 --> 00:04:45,994 Name? 44 00:04:46,286 --> 00:04:48,254 Uh, Nancy Eamons. 45 00:04:49,247 --> 00:04:52,000 Oh, um, the boy, I mean. 46 00:04:52,125 --> 00:04:54,628 Unless you're the one checking in. Jared Eamons. 47 00:04:55,045 --> 00:04:56,297 (MUTTERING) 48 00:04:56,379 --> 00:04:57,505 Got you right here. 49 00:05:05,430 --> 00:05:07,478 Great. Do you want to say your good byes? 50 00:05:08,016 --> 00:05:09,268 Can I see the place? 51 00:05:09,351 --> 00:05:12,195 I'm afraid you won't be allowed beyond the reception area, Mrs. Eamons, 52 00:05:12,270 --> 00:05:14,398 but you can pick him up at 5:00 p.m. Oh. 53 00:05:14,481 --> 00:05:15,482 Okay. 54 00:05:17,776 --> 00:05:18,948 It's okay, Mom. 55 00:05:24,115 --> 00:05:27,415 Well, call me any time. I'll be at the hotel on my cell phone. 56 00:05:27,702 --> 00:05:30,125 Uh, we will be holding his cell phone. 57 00:05:30,205 --> 00:05:32,549 If there are any emergencies, we will contact you. 58 00:05:32,624 --> 00:05:34,501 But otherwise, 5:00 p.m. 59 00:05:41,508 --> 00:05:42,760 (SOFTLY) You'll do great. 60 00:05:45,554 --> 00:05:46,726 Love you. 61 00:05:49,683 --> 00:05:50,980 AARON: Newbie. Eamons. 62 00:05:53,395 --> 00:05:54,521 Empty your pockets. 63 00:06:04,197 --> 00:06:06,199 Do you have any numbers or photos we should be concerned about? 64 00:06:08,535 --> 00:06:10,879 We'll check it daily and call any number at random, 65 00:06:10,954 --> 00:06:13,173 so you best be straight with us on that. 66 00:06:13,331 --> 00:06:16,175 There's nothing. And, yeah, call whatever numbers if you need to. 67 00:06:18,753 --> 00:06:22,053 CAMERON: “Sobriety. No smoking, no alcohol or drugs." 68 00:06:23,174 --> 00:06:27,554 CARL: "Off hours. All clients to remain within a safe zone area as designated.“ 69 00:06:28,597 --> 00:06:32,022 "Attire. Women's skirts must extend below the knee 70 00:06:32,100 --> 00:06:33,477 "and bras are to be worn at all times." 71 00:06:33,560 --> 00:06:34,561 MICHAEL: What's that? 72 00:06:34,811 --> 00:06:38,816 on, it's, um... (STAMMERS) I write stories. 73 00:06:38,899 --> 00:06:40,071 I'm studying in a college... 74 00:06:40,150 --> 00:06:42,323 No journaling. We're gonna have to read that. 75 00:06:43,361 --> 00:06:44,658 "Confidentiality. 76 00:06:44,738 --> 00:06:47,708 "All matters discussed in therapy are to remain private." 77 00:06:48,700 --> 00:06:50,043 "Restrooms. 78 00:06:50,118 --> 00:06:53,543 "Members must be supervised by staff during restroom visits." 79 00:06:53,663 --> 00:06:55,961 MICHAEL: Your handbook. JARED: Oh, yeah. 80 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:58,509 MICHAEL: Good luck. 81 00:06:59,210 --> 00:07:00,211 Thank you. 82 00:07:00,295 --> 00:07:03,890 "No viewing of pornographic material, no masturbation, 83 00:07:03,965 --> 00:07:06,718 "no physical contact with any member at any time, 84 00:07:06,801 --> 00:07:09,304 "apart from the briefest ofhandshakesf 85 00:07:21,274 --> 00:07:22,526 (MEN TALKING INDISTINCTLY) 86 00:07:40,251 --> 00:07:41,252 (ON WALKIE-TALKIE) Michael for Aaron, 87 00:07:41,336 --> 00:07:43,213 how many clients are we expecting today? 88 00:07:43,630 --> 00:07:45,382 Copy, Michael. Hold, please. 89 00:07:45,465 --> 00:07:46,762 Uh, just one second, Jared. 90 00:07:47,968 --> 00:07:49,595 We should have 11 today. 91 00:07:50,345 --> 00:07:51,767 MICHAEL: Well, we have more in the lobby. 92 00:07:52,722 --> 00:07:54,520 AARON: It's okay. We should get another five minutes. 93 00:07:54,599 --> 00:07:55,771 MICHAEL: Copy. 94 00:07:55,850 --> 00:07:57,898 Jared, if you just want to go find yourself a seat 95 00:07:57,978 --> 00:07:59,855 and then make yourself comfortable. We'll get started soon. 96 00:07:59,980 --> 00:08:01,323 (BOY SOBBING) 97 00:08:06,486 --> 00:08:07,612 Hi. Hi. 98 00:08:16,162 --> 00:08:17,163 Morning. 99 00:08:18,164 --> 00:08:19,165 Hi. 100 00:08:19,416 --> 00:08:22,340 JARED: "Sinful, salacious, and extraneous materials. 101 00:08:22,794 --> 00:08:25,547 "All reading material and films and television 102 00:08:25,630 --> 00:08:27,507 "are off limits while inside the program." 103 00:08:28,174 --> 00:08:29,175 (SIGHS) 104 00:08:30,969 --> 00:08:35,019 VICTOR: lam using sexual sin and homosexuality 105 00:08:35,098 --> 00:08:37,647 to fill a God-shaped void in my life. 106 00:08:38,101 --> 00:08:42,151 ALL: lam using sexual sin and homosexuality 107 00:08:42,230 --> 00:08:44,528 to fill a God-shaped void in my life. 108 00:08:44,649 --> 00:08:48,654 VICTOR: But I am not broken, and God loves me. 109 00:08:48,987 --> 00:08:51,740 ALL: But I am not broken, and God loves me. 110 00:08:51,823 --> 00:08:53,450 VICTOR: Good. That is very true. 111 00:08:53,533 --> 00:08:56,878 Now somebody tell me what this is. 112 00:08:58,955 --> 00:09:00,252 AUDIENCE MEMBER; A dollar. 113 00:09:00,331 --> 00:09:01,423 VICTORIA dollar. 114 00:09:02,042 --> 00:09:04,966 Now, no matter how much you crumple up a dollar bill, 115 00:09:05,920 --> 00:09:07,672 you can never take away its value. 116 00:09:09,507 --> 00:09:11,976 Now even if you were to rip it, 117 00:09:12,844 --> 00:09:15,563 which would represent our being severed from Christ, 118 00:09:15,638 --> 00:09:16,730 well, guess what? 119 00:09:17,432 --> 00:09:18,979 You can always tape it back together. 120 00:09:20,143 --> 00:09:22,271 Jesus puts us back together. 121 00:09:23,271 --> 00:09:27,321 And even though there is a scar, our value does not change. 122 00:09:28,193 --> 00:09:29,991 You are somebody. Sorry. 123 00:09:30,070 --> 00:09:33,074 You are worth something. That's okay, Jon. Sit down. 124 00:09:33,156 --> 00:09:35,659 And that is a fact. Don't spend it all at once, Phillip. 125 00:09:35,742 --> 00:09:36,743 (LAUGHTER) 126 00:09:36,826 --> 00:09:39,500 Now, this may be the toughest, but most rewarding 127 00:09:39,579 --> 00:09:41,707 12 days that many of you will ever face. 128 00:09:42,540 --> 00:09:44,338 But we have just one task, 129 00:09:44,417 --> 00:09:47,466 to bring ourselves back to God. 130 00:09:48,671 --> 00:09:50,298 To invite him back in. 131 00:09:50,423 --> 00:09:52,642 To understand how he truly meant to create us 132 00:09:52,717 --> 00:09:54,640 before all those pieces got torn away. 133 00:09:55,220 --> 00:09:58,724 Now, look, I know the road here wasn't easy for many of you. 134 00:09:59,849 --> 00:10:02,773 But I promise a smoother ride now that you're here. 135 00:10:02,852 --> 00:10:08,074 Because we are about to go on an amazing journey together. 136 00:10:08,733 --> 00:10:09,859 So, who's ready? 137 00:10:12,195 --> 00:10:15,369 That was a question. Who's ready? Say amen! 138 00:10:15,573 --> 00:10:16,790 ALL: Amen. 139 00:10:16,866 --> 00:10:19,540 Amen! If you know you're worth a dollar, say amen! 140 00:10:19,661 --> 00:10:20,662 ALL: Amen! 141 00:10:20,745 --> 00:10:21,871 (LIGHT LAUGHTER) 142 00:10:22,038 --> 00:10:24,757 VICTOR: Welcome to the Refuge program! Come on! 143 00:10:26,709 --> 00:10:29,804 That's right, great souls! Great! 144 00:10:40,265 --> 00:10:41,482 VICTOR: Now, I'm gonna tell you something 145 00:10:41,558 --> 00:10:44,562 that's gonna make you immediately feel a little better. 146 00:10:44,936 --> 00:10:47,314 People tell you you can be born gay, that's not true. 147 00:10:47,897 --> 00:10:50,616 You cannot be born a homosexual, this is a lie. 148 00:10:51,359 --> 00:10:55,614 Now, I'm a counselor and a pastor, but was I born that way? 149 00:10:56,281 --> 00:10:57,328 (CHUCKUNG)NQ 150 00:10:58,074 --> 00:11:01,123 It's behavioral. It's a choice. 151 00:11:02,245 --> 00:11:06,671 Cameron, you, you, uh, play football? Yeah? 152 00:11:06,749 --> 00:11:08,296 Yeah. Were you born that way? 153 00:11:09,586 --> 00:11:10,758 No. No. 154 00:11:10,837 --> 00:11:14,011 Now, you chose to be a football player, right? 155 00:11:14,382 --> 00:11:15,383 It's behavior. 156 00:11:15,466 --> 00:11:17,389 Now, if you... If Cameron stops playing football, 157 00:11:17,468 --> 00:11:19,345 he no longer is a football player. 158 00:11:19,429 --> 00:11:22,524 We gotta learn for ourselves where behavior comes from 159 00:11:22,599 --> 00:11:24,192 so we can cut it out 160 00:11:24,267 --> 00:11:26,395 and then we can no longer be labeled that way. 161 00:11:27,312 --> 00:11:29,189 Now, who can tell us what a genogram is? 162 00:11:30,273 --> 00:11:31,490 Phillip. 163 00:11:31,608 --> 00:11:34,111 Well, a genogram is like a family tree... Mmm. 164 00:11:34,194 --> 00:11:37,744 ...only one that shows patterns of family behavior as well. 165 00:11:37,822 --> 00:11:39,199 Sort of like an illustrated one. 166 00:11:39,282 --> 00:11:43,583 Yes. Now, we are going to draw our family tree 167 00:11:43,661 --> 00:11:47,757 and we're gonna list next to these people their behavioral sin. 168 00:11:47,832 --> 00:11:50,005 So, they made us 169 00:11:51,336 --> 00:11:53,464 and they labeled us, so we're gonna label them. 170 00:11:53,546 --> 00:11:55,765 Michael, can you read the behavioral sins? 171 00:11:58,134 --> 00:12:01,229 We use the letters SSA or H 172 00:12:01,304 --> 00:12:04,808 to label same sex attraction or homosexuality, 173 00:12:05,975 --> 00:12:07,318 D for drugs, 174 00:12:08,228 --> 00:12:10,105 a dollar sign for gambling, 175 00:12:10,939 --> 00:12:12,737 A, alcoholism, 176 00:12:13,650 --> 00:12:15,277 P, promiscuity, 177 00:12:16,152 --> 00:12:17,995 M, mental illness, 178 00:12:19,113 --> 00:12:22,117 capital A, lowercase B for abortion, 179 00:12:22,200 --> 00:12:25,204 capital P, lowercase O for pornography, 180 00:12:25,286 --> 00:12:28,415 and C or G, criminal or gang affiliation. 181 00:12:28,498 --> 00:12:31,502 VICTOR: You're forgetting DV, domestic violence. 182 00:12:31,584 --> 00:12:34,463 MICHAEL: Capital D, lowercase V, domestic violence. 183 00:12:35,129 --> 00:12:37,177 VICTOR: Okay. Guys, let's dive right in. 184 00:12:37,257 --> 00:12:40,181 Let's grab some cards and some markers. 185 00:12:40,260 --> 00:12:42,012 I want you to write them down 186 00:12:43,554 --> 00:12:45,852 and put the letters next to their names. 187 00:12:45,932 --> 00:12:47,809 I know they're family, 188 00:12:47,892 --> 00:12:50,736 but I can guarantee that one or some of these people 189 00:12:50,812 --> 00:12:53,611 are the reason that you're at Love in Action. 190 00:12:55,775 --> 00:12:58,995 So, Jared, you must be the preacher's son. 191 00:12:59,487 --> 00:13:02,366 You know or you don't know. 192 00:13:02,740 --> 00:13:04,413 What's the question mark for? 193 00:13:05,576 --> 00:13:07,829 Uncle Chris is an alcoholic. 194 00:13:10,873 --> 00:13:11,874 Hmm. 195 00:13:12,625 --> 00:13:14,878 Well, this must be pretty tough on your family, huh? 196 00:13:16,004 --> 00:13:19,429 MARSHALL: Give ear, O my people, to my law. 197 00:13:19,507 --> 00:13:21,976 Incline your ears to the words of my mouth. 198 00:13:22,051 --> 00:13:24,645 I will open my mouth in a parable. 199 00:13:25,054 --> 00:13:27,398 I will utter dark sayings which we have heard. 200 00:13:28,141 --> 00:13:29,188 No. 201 00:13:29,517 --> 00:13:30,814 JARED: Sounds good, Dad. 202 00:13:31,436 --> 00:13:33,154 Are you ready? We gotta get going. 203 00:13:33,229 --> 00:13:34,822 Why are we going to Dallas tomorrow? 204 00:13:36,149 --> 00:13:38,868 Architect's updated the, uh, remodel plans for the ministry. 205 00:13:38,943 --> 00:13:42,197 Now we're gonna take a tour of two similar churches right there. 206 00:13:45,742 --> 00:13:48,791 Do you think I could stay at Chloe's when you go instead? 207 00:13:52,665 --> 00:13:53,882 It's okay, I can stay at Wayne's. 208 00:13:53,958 --> 00:13:56,006 Or... Or, I'll just... I'm okay with that. 209 00:13:56,169 --> 00:13:58,171 In fact, I think it is a great idea. 210 00:13:59,005 --> 00:14:02,885 You're both mature kids who know how to conduct themselves 211 00:14:03,051 --> 00:14:05,270 and who by now know how the world works. 212 00:14:05,845 --> 00:14:06,846 (SIGHS) 213 00:14:06,929 --> 00:14:12,277 You know, son, small steps toward manhood. That's the way to learn. 214 00:14:13,853 --> 00:14:16,697 That way you don't get all panicky when it suddenly arrives. 215 00:14:18,900 --> 00:14:20,652 You do know what I'm saying, Romeo? 216 00:14:20,735 --> 00:14:21,861 Yes, sir. Okay. 217 00:14:22,153 --> 00:14:23,154 Let's go, we're late. 218 00:14:23,237 --> 00:14:26,332 BIG JIM: Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for this beautiful day 219 00:14:26,532 --> 00:14:29,206 and, Lord, we pray that you look over our shoulder 220 00:14:29,285 --> 00:14:31,253 as we march out onto the floor 221 00:14:31,329 --> 00:14:35,050 and that we show our customers the love and kindness that you show us. 222 00:14:35,458 --> 00:14:37,677 In Jesus Christ's name and for his sake... 223 00:14:37,752 --> 00:14:39,174 Morning! Let your light shine! 224 00:14:39,379 --> 00:14:41,006 Amen. ALL: Amen. 225 00:14:41,089 --> 00:14:42,511 EMPLOYEE: All right. MARSHALL: Have a great day. 226 00:14:43,674 --> 00:14:45,017 (WHISTLE BLOWING) 227 00:14:45,385 --> 00:14:46,887 (CHEERING) 228 00:14:50,348 --> 00:14:52,942 COACH: Rebels on three. One, two, three... 229 00:14:53,017 --> 00:14:54,234 ALL: Rebels! 230 00:14:58,564 --> 00:14:59,781 You did so good. 231 00:15:01,317 --> 00:15:05,367 Right, buddy? Assists, one of the most underrated components of the game. 232 00:15:05,571 --> 00:15:07,915 Congratulations. NANCY: I saw you setting up all the points. 233 00:15:08,032 --> 00:15:09,659 MARSHALL: Oh, that's victory sweat. Dad, I'm... 234 00:15:09,742 --> 00:15:11,415 Yeah! I played, like, five minutes. 235 00:15:11,828 --> 00:15:13,375 Hey. MARSHALL: I think you played more than that. 236 00:15:13,454 --> 00:15:15,877 How about you? Another underrated component of the game. 237 00:15:15,998 --> 00:15:17,591 CHLOE: Thank you. How are you? Congratulations, beautiful girl. 238 00:15:17,667 --> 00:15:19,544 I was worried about you. I thought they were going to drop you. 239 00:15:19,627 --> 00:15:21,129 CHLOE: Oh, no, don't worry. 240 00:15:21,212 --> 00:15:22,714 You kids going to go celebrate? 241 00:15:22,797 --> 00:15:25,175 Yeah, some of us, I think we're gonna go to the lake. 242 00:15:25,258 --> 00:15:26,976 All right. The lake. 243 00:15:28,678 --> 00:15:32,774 All right. Dealership's going to put me in an Expedition, so it's yours. 244 00:15:33,891 --> 00:15:34,892 JARED: Wow. 245 00:15:35,476 --> 00:15:37,069 Dad! (CHUCKLES) All right. 246 00:15:37,562 --> 00:15:39,109 It's gonna be for your birthday, 247 00:15:39,188 --> 00:15:40,906 but tonight's a good night, so congratulations. 248 00:15:41,023 --> 00:15:43,025 Thank you so much. Thank you. MARSHALL: Go and have fun. 249 00:15:43,109 --> 00:15:45,157 I want to see if your mama wants to go to the lake. 250 00:15:45,236 --> 00:15:46,613 (CHLOE AND JARED CHUCKLE) 251 00:15:47,447 --> 00:15:48,699 (LAUGHTER) 252 00:15:57,373 --> 00:15:59,000 (EXCITED SQUEALS) 253 00:16:23,065 --> 00:16:24,066 CHLOE: They're still up. 254 00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:43,961 What? 255 00:16:45,671 --> 00:16:46,672 (SIGHS) 256 00:16:49,175 --> 00:16:51,644 If it's not hard, I can make it hard. 257 00:16:52,136 --> 00:16:55,015 Don't you think we should wait until, you know... 258 00:16:55,097 --> 00:16:56,144 Until... 259 00:16:57,850 --> 00:17:00,444 You know... Until what? We get married? 260 00:17:00,978 --> 00:17:01,979 (CHUCKLES) 261 00:17:03,272 --> 00:17:05,115 That's what my parents think we should do. 262 00:17:07,860 --> 00:17:09,862 To keep us together through college. 263 00:17:17,161 --> 00:17:18,208 Hey- 264 00:17:20,790 --> 00:17:22,007 ls something wrong? 265 00:17:23,042 --> 00:17:24,134 No. 266 00:17:27,505 --> 00:17:28,506 AARON: Jared. 267 00:17:30,758 --> 00:17:33,352 Ready to pack it up? We're about done for the day. Looks nice. 268 00:17:35,346 --> 00:17:37,394 5:00, everyone! It's home time. 269 00:17:38,975 --> 00:17:40,977 GIRL: Bye. AARON: 5:00, let's go! 270 00:17:44,981 --> 00:17:46,574 MICHAEL: All right, everybody, pack it up. 271 00:17:48,025 --> 00:17:49,322 Name tag. 272 00:17:51,988 --> 00:17:53,410 JARED: Thanks. MICHAEL: 9:00 a.m. tomorrow. 273 00:18:00,830 --> 00:18:01,831 Uh... 274 00:18:02,748 --> 00:18:05,297 Hey, (STAMMERS) you tore out the pages. 275 00:18:05,459 --> 00:18:07,336 Mmm. They're just stories. 276 00:18:07,670 --> 00:18:09,343 Mr. Sykes will decide that. 277 00:18:10,298 --> 00:18:11,345 AARON". For Michael. 278 00:18:12,717 --> 00:18:13,764 Go for Michael. 279 00:18:14,176 --> 00:18:15,553 AARON". Are you still in the office? 280 00:18:30,401 --> 00:18:31,402 (EXHALES) 281 00:18:36,991 --> 00:18:40,621 Are you... Are you a soldier? Were you in the military or something? 282 00:18:40,703 --> 00:18:42,751 I saw you salute earlier. (CHUCKLES) No. 283 00:18:44,081 --> 00:18:46,834 I'm trying zero contact whatsoever. Mmm. 284 00:18:46,917 --> 00:18:48,169 Twenty-three days now. 285 00:18:49,837 --> 00:18:52,841 So, I salute instead. 286 00:18:55,760 --> 00:18:56,977 This group seems good. 287 00:18:58,554 --> 00:18:59,897 Have you been here before? 288 00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:03,226 Yeah, it's my second time in the Refuge program. 289 00:19:03,893 --> 00:19:05,895 I started a couple days late last time. 290 00:19:05,978 --> 00:19:09,198 And actually, I'm waiting for a place to open in one of the houses. 291 00:19:09,273 --> 00:19:11,947 What houses? The houses. 292 00:19:12,151 --> 00:19:15,200 They have a few houses behind the property for the long stayers. 293 00:19:15,613 --> 00:19:19,789 Meanwhile, I'm stuck at the Baybrook with my dad, 294 00:19:19,867 --> 00:19:21,540 which is interesting. 295 00:19:24,705 --> 00:19:28,426 Are you in one of the local hotels, too? Yeah. 296 00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:33,389 So, like, how long will you stay for? 297 00:19:36,133 --> 00:19:39,763 It's not really up to me. Mr. Sykes decides. 298 00:19:40,805 --> 00:19:43,729 No one explained that to you? No, no. 299 00:19:44,934 --> 00:19:49,280 This is just an assessment program, until they know what to do with you. 300 00:19:50,314 --> 00:19:53,818 Hey, listen. Just lean into it, man. 301 00:19:55,069 --> 00:19:56,116 Yeah. 302 00:19:56,195 --> 00:19:58,744 Do the work and trust me, man, 303 00:20:00,116 --> 00:20:01,368 you're gonna love it here. 304 00:20:02,827 --> 00:20:04,750 NANCY: Aren't you gonna tell me about your day? 305 00:20:05,413 --> 00:20:07,757 We're not meant to talk about it outside of group. 306 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:12,337 I don't need gossip, I just... I just mean generally. 307 00:20:13,838 --> 00:20:15,306 I'm gonna lean into it 308 00:20:16,006 --> 00:20:17,508 and there are some good people. 309 00:20:17,591 --> 00:20:18,763 And, yeah, I like it. 310 00:20:19,552 --> 00:20:23,102 (CHUCKLES) I'm excited to be here. That's good! 311 00:20:31,063 --> 00:20:35,660 Do we have people in the family who had issues with any of this stuff? 312 00:20:44,201 --> 00:20:45,202 (CLEARS THROAT) 313 00:20:47,663 --> 00:20:50,086 Pornography? Mom... 314 00:20:56,464 --> 00:20:59,343 Drugs? Gang affiliation. 315 00:20:59,425 --> 00:21:01,553 Gang affiliations? What is this? 316 00:21:01,761 --> 00:21:03,229 I need to know for homework. 317 00:21:03,888 --> 00:21:05,890 Why do they need to know about the family? 318 00:21:06,682 --> 00:21:08,605 Our family is so normal. 319 00:21:36,670 --> 00:21:38,638 Big day tomorrow, hmm? 320 00:21:39,840 --> 00:21:41,387 You get some good sleep, now. 321 00:21:45,971 --> 00:21:48,895 Oh, um, I filled out your homework for you. 322 00:21:53,187 --> 00:21:57,112 I was only in a gang for a year or so until I went down for drugs. 323 00:21:58,025 --> 00:21:59,368 Got sent to prison. 324 00:22:00,820 --> 00:22:01,867 Haha! 325 00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:02,988 (NANCY CHUCKLES) 326 00:22:08,786 --> 00:22:10,538 I put your Uncle Vincent down there. 327 00:22:11,497 --> 00:22:15,252 You've never met him because he moved to Louisiana when you were little, so... 328 00:22:16,210 --> 00:22:17,712 We just never see him. 329 00:22:18,879 --> 00:22:20,552 We always figured that he... 330 00:22:23,092 --> 00:22:24,093 (CLEARS THROAT) 331 00:22:27,388 --> 00:22:29,766 He was very feminine-like, you might say. 332 00:22:32,893 --> 00:22:35,521 All right. Oh, I'm tired. 333 00:22:37,898 --> 00:22:39,900 Night night. Good night. 334 00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:50,874 VICTOR: What is a real man? 335 00:22:52,580 --> 00:22:54,548 What does a real man look like? 336 00:22:55,583 --> 00:22:56,880 Does anybody know? 337 00:22:58,627 --> 00:23:01,801 Guys, uncross your legs. Posture, come on. 338 00:23:02,298 --> 00:23:06,144 Now, perhaps being close to the flames of hell 339 00:23:07,094 --> 00:23:11,144 and finding your way back shows a great strength. 340 00:23:12,057 --> 00:23:13,684 And if that were so, then, 341 00:23:14,393 --> 00:23:17,442 if this isn't a real man, then I don't know what is. 342 00:23:17,605 --> 00:23:20,108 This is Brandon Ellis, guys. I want you to say hello. 343 00:23:20,190 --> 00:23:21,487 BRANDON: Thanks, Sykes. VICTOR: Make him welcome. 344 00:23:21,692 --> 00:23:22,693 Over to you, Brandon. 345 00:23:25,821 --> 00:23:27,915 BRANDON: God bless, God bless. 346 00:23:28,532 --> 00:23:31,627 A real man to me is a man of God first and foremost 347 00:23:32,995 --> 00:23:34,542 and I'm a man of God, no doubt. 348 00:23:35,372 --> 00:23:36,999 I guess that counts me in. 349 00:23:38,584 --> 00:23:39,710 But I wasn't once. 350 00:23:41,170 --> 00:23:43,889 If I was ever listed on my own son's genograms, 351 00:23:44,173 --> 00:23:47,222 there'd be so many of these letters next to my name it would look like 352 00:23:47,843 --> 00:23:51,268 quahficafionsfor some fancy university. (VICTOR CHUCKLES) 353 00:23:51,347 --> 00:23:54,442 Drugs, violence, gang crime, prison time, 354 00:23:54,600 --> 00:23:57,103 but I actually believe I'm qualified to be here. 355 00:23:57,811 --> 00:24:00,940 Not because I've ever had the types of thoughts andfeefings 356 00:24:01,023 --> 00:24:02,320 that y'all are wrestling with, 357 00:24:02,441 --> 00:24:05,160 or that your other guidance counselors have overcome righteously. 358 00:24:06,153 --> 00:24:10,579 But I've had all sorts of my own trials that took me so far away from the Lord 359 00:24:11,075 --> 00:24:15,125 that it's a true miracle that I'm standing here before you today. 360 00:24:16,747 --> 00:24:19,671 But I am. I am. 361 00:24:25,297 --> 00:24:28,426 BRANDON: Standing, leaning, sitting. 362 00:24:29,009 --> 00:24:30,511 All the same idea. 363 00:24:30,970 --> 00:24:33,769 Triangles are the strongest shape. 364 00:24:33,973 --> 00:24:36,067 Remember, hands on hips. Go! 365 00:24:37,393 --> 00:24:38,645 Save yourself. 366 00:24:42,356 --> 00:24:45,576 Fingers forward, not back. Just the way it is. 367 00:24:45,985 --> 00:24:48,829 Think of the shapes you're making and ask yourself, 368 00:24:49,905 --> 00:24:54,411 "Is this a manly shape I'm making or is it a girly or feminine shape?" 369 00:24:55,703 --> 00:24:56,829 Sarah, come on up here. 370 00:24:58,163 --> 00:24:59,836 Come on, you delicate flower, you. 371 00:25:00,958 --> 00:25:01,959 Okay. 372 00:25:02,167 --> 00:25:05,797 I want you to arrange these guys into a line 373 00:25:05,879 --> 00:25:07,927 in terms of masculinity, if you will. 374 00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:11,347 Go on, you can do it. 375 00:25:12,594 --> 00:25:13,811 Follow your instincts. 376 00:25:16,724 --> 00:25:21,025 Myself and other addicts and alcoholics put our faith in AA. 377 00:25:21,603 --> 00:25:25,949 Get familiar with this phrase, "Fake it till you make it." 378 00:25:26,984 --> 00:25:29,783 Y'all folks and kids being what you're afflicted with, 379 00:25:30,404 --> 00:25:31,951 you gotta learn how to survive. 380 00:25:33,323 --> 00:25:34,700 When you're in prison, 381 00:25:34,783 --> 00:25:37,161 you'd surprise yourself what you can do to fit in. 382 00:25:37,244 --> 00:25:40,293 Come on, Phillip. Eye on the ball. 383 00:25:40,622 --> 00:25:42,795 Come on! Okay, next. 384 00:25:42,875 --> 00:25:45,845 Fake it till you make it. Become the man you are not. 385 00:25:45,919 --> 00:25:49,048 So, you think Cameron here is the big winner, huh? 386 00:25:50,382 --> 00:25:52,726 You think being big and tall 387 00:25:52,801 --> 00:25:55,805 and overeating immediately puts a guy at the front of the line. 388 00:25:56,555 --> 00:26:00,150 But it's more than triangles and postures and genetics. 389 00:26:01,143 --> 00:26:03,362 A firm handshake... Let's go! Do it! 390 00:26:04,938 --> 00:26:06,155 Gotta pick up the bat. 391 00:26:07,316 --> 00:26:08,659 Hold the bat up! 392 00:26:08,984 --> 00:26:09,985 (GROANS) 393 00:26:10,277 --> 00:26:11,403 Get back up on that horse! 394 00:26:12,237 --> 00:26:13,784 All right, just get him out of there. 395 00:26:16,408 --> 00:26:17,955 Lee, you're gonna be okay. 396 00:26:19,244 --> 00:26:20,496 Jared, you're up next. 397 00:26:22,331 --> 00:26:23,378 Good. 398 00:26:28,712 --> 00:26:31,682 Military man. God bless, son. 399 00:26:31,924 --> 00:26:36,020 Who you are on the inside can be affected by the outside. 400 00:26:36,303 --> 00:26:41,025 Outside in, fake it till you make it, adapt to survive. 401 00:26:41,100 --> 00:26:44,695 See, that's a batting stance. That's what I'm talking about. 402 00:26:45,646 --> 00:26:47,068 Boom! 403 00:26:58,367 --> 00:27:04,045 VICTOR: Lesbian, gay, bisexual, transsexual, whatever that is, 404 00:27:04,123 --> 00:27:08,299 multisexual, intellectual-sexual, I mean, what else do you want? 405 00:27:08,418 --> 00:27:13,094 Unicorns? Squirrels? Cupcakes? I mean, rainbows? (LAUGHTER) 406 00:27:13,173 --> 00:27:16,848 There's so much choice in this group. 407 00:27:16,927 --> 00:27:22,229 But, hey, think about this. What are the consequences to those choices? 408 00:27:24,643 --> 00:27:27,897 Have a look at this. Rape, abuse, AIDS. 409 00:27:29,231 --> 00:27:31,780 What sinful things have y'all done? 410 00:27:36,613 --> 00:27:38,206 Moral inventory. 411 00:27:39,408 --> 00:27:43,288 Catalogue your sins and ask God's forgiveness. 412 00:27:46,623 --> 00:27:47,749 Who's ready? 413 00:27:51,795 --> 00:27:52,842 Sarah! 414 00:28:06,685 --> 00:28:09,859 SARAH: "I would look at other girls in the changing rooms before gym 415 00:28:10,898 --> 00:28:11,990 "and in the showers. 416 00:28:12,983 --> 00:28:15,702 "My biggest sin is one that I am also thankful for 417 00:28:15,777 --> 00:28:17,779 "because it has led me to Love in Action." 418 00:28:19,615 --> 00:28:21,367 VICTOR: Doing well, Sarah. Carry on. 419 00:28:25,579 --> 00:28:27,252 "I had run away from my uncle's house 420 00:28:28,248 --> 00:28:31,798 "and stayed with some girls I knew whose parents were away. 421 00:28:32,961 --> 00:28:36,386 "It was there that I finally acted on my homosexual thoughts." 422 00:28:39,718 --> 00:28:40,810 VICTOR: Come on, Sarah. 423 00:28:42,054 --> 00:28:43,397 SARAH: "I let a girl touch my... 424 00:28:44,514 --> 00:28:45,640 "Kiss my... 425 00:28:46,475 --> 00:28:48,443 (STAMMERS) "My vagina." 426 00:28:50,771 --> 00:28:52,364 VICTOR: Nobody's judging, come on. 427 00:28:52,940 --> 00:28:57,070 SARAH: "And put her fingers inside me and I did the same. 428 00:28:58,820 --> 00:29:01,664 "I renounce these sinful thoughts and actions 429 00:29:01,740 --> 00:29:04,163 "and ask God to forgive me all these things." 430 00:29:06,745 --> 00:29:07,792 Very good. 431 00:29:09,122 --> 00:29:10,339 We love you, Sarah. 432 00:29:10,666 --> 00:29:13,340 Repeat after me. We love you, Sarah. 433 00:29:14,002 --> 00:29:16,050 ALL: We love you, Sarah. VICTOR: Very good. 434 00:29:36,984 --> 00:29:39,328 Do you want some water? I'm fine, thanks. 435 00:29:40,112 --> 00:29:41,113 (SIGHS) 436 00:29:41,488 --> 00:29:44,742 Can I get you anything else? I'm... I'm fine, thank you. 437 00:29:45,784 --> 00:29:48,833 LEE'S FATHER: How dare you humiliate a child like that! 438 00:29:50,038 --> 00:29:51,961 Is that what you guys do? You like that? 439 00:29:52,040 --> 00:29:55,260 You like doing that? You like humiliating and abusing children? 440 00:29:55,961 --> 00:29:58,339 VICTOR: It's not easy. What do you mean it's not easy? 441 00:29:58,422 --> 00:29:59,924 BOY: Lee's parents. GIRL: His parents are here. 442 00:30:00,007 --> 00:30:01,224 LEE'S FATHER: Listen to yourself. 443 00:30:01,300 --> 00:30:04,053 VICTOR: VVith respect, we are not running a holiday camp here. 444 00:30:04,136 --> 00:30:06,889 We paid you $3,000. I should report you. 445 00:30:07,014 --> 00:30:09,733 You could have given him a concussion. LEE'S MOTHER: David, let's g0. 446 00:30:09,808 --> 00:30:11,685 VICTOR: But this change doesn't come easy. 447 00:30:12,227 --> 00:30:13,479 Unbelievable! 448 00:30:27,617 --> 00:30:30,336 Do you all find the reason y'all are here is funny? 449 00:30:31,038 --> 00:30:32,415 Look at y'all! 450 00:30:33,165 --> 00:30:34,337 People! 451 00:30:35,083 --> 00:30:36,630 I'm trying to help you. 452 00:30:36,710 --> 00:30:38,883 So, do not waste my time. 453 00:30:38,962 --> 00:30:42,341 Nobody is to discuss the therapy outside these walls. 454 00:30:42,424 --> 00:30:43,767 Do I make myself clear? 455 00:31:36,186 --> 00:31:37,654 HENRY: Here. lgotyou,paL 456 00:31:38,146 --> 00:31:39,773 Oh, sorry, sorry. I got that. 457 00:31:39,898 --> 00:31:41,024 Thank you so much. 458 00:31:41,274 --> 00:31:43,493 Which, uh... Which room you in? 459 00:31:43,777 --> 00:31:45,575 I'm in, uh, 317. 460 00:31:46,154 --> 00:31:49,124 I'm in 237. You run? 461 00:31:49,408 --> 00:31:50,580 Yeah. I figure. 462 00:31:50,659 --> 00:31:53,208 People who run know about Asics, right? Oh, yeah. 463 00:31:54,162 --> 00:31:55,209 Here. This is me. 464 00:31:59,084 --> 00:32:00,256 (JARED EXHALES) 465 00:32:05,507 --> 00:32:07,384 First one in gets to choose. 466 00:32:08,218 --> 00:32:09,219 (HENRY GRUNTS) 467 00:32:12,264 --> 00:32:13,390 You got a girl? 468 00:32:14,141 --> 00:32:17,771 If so, you might want to think about applying for a room without bunks. 469 00:32:18,186 --> 00:32:19,312 Just broke up. 470 00:32:20,105 --> 00:32:21,106 Oh. 471 00:32:21,314 --> 00:32:24,659 That's perfect timing forcoflege. 472 00:32:26,319 --> 00:32:28,196 HENRY: We're a good fit. 473 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:29,827 Hate running with slowpokes. 474 00:32:30,657 --> 00:32:32,705 I tell you what, I race you on the way back. 475 00:32:33,410 --> 00:32:35,754 Last one back has to go to the other one's church. 476 00:32:35,912 --> 00:32:37,710 Why? What kind of church is it? 477 00:32:38,373 --> 00:32:39,499 You game or not? 478 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:41,001 Okay. 479 00:32:41,543 --> 00:32:44,171 One, two, three, go! Two, three, go! 480 00:32:48,633 --> 00:32:49,634 (SINGING) 481 00:32:53,472 --> 00:32:55,770 (WHISTLING AND CHEERING) 482 00:33:09,070 --> 00:33:11,038 Jared. Hey, man. Nice to meet you. 483 00:33:16,703 --> 00:33:17,795 (BOTH PANTING) 484 00:33:49,819 --> 00:33:51,571 (SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYING ON VIDEO GAME) 485 00:33:57,786 --> 00:34:00,005 You say your roommate's not back till tomorrow? 486 00:34:00,497 --> 00:34:02,044 He's on some golf trip. 487 00:34:06,586 --> 00:34:07,838 Do you want to crash? 488 00:34:10,757 --> 00:34:12,054 Uh, maybe. 489 00:34:31,820 --> 00:34:32,821 Good night. 490 00:34:33,947 --> 00:34:34,948 Good night. 491 00:34:48,086 --> 00:34:49,303 (TV TURNS OFF) 492 00:34:53,967 --> 00:34:56,015 (SHOES THUDDING) (ZIPPER UNZIPS) 493 00:35:10,817 --> 00:35:12,069 (BUNK CREAKING) 494 00:35:26,708 --> 00:35:28,005 JARED: Can't sleep, huh? 495 00:35:36,301 --> 00:35:37,598 (BUNK CREAKING) 496 00:35:38,094 --> 00:35:39,391 (JARED SIGHS SOFTLY) 497 00:35:43,308 --> 00:35:45,356 JARED: Probably shouldn't run so late at night. 498 00:35:52,525 --> 00:35:53,697 (BUNK CREAKING) 499 00:36:04,829 --> 00:36:05,876 You Okay? 500 00:36:08,583 --> 00:36:09,709 Yeah. 501 00:36:12,379 --> 00:36:13,551 Yeah, just... 502 00:37:01,136 --> 00:37:02,479 It's okay. 503 00:37:07,726 --> 00:37:08,727 It's okay. 504 00:37:08,893 --> 00:37:10,361 (JARED BREATHING HEAVILY) 505 00:37:27,412 --> 00:37:30,586 Hey, it's okay. It's okay. 506 00:37:31,833 --> 00:37:32,880 Wait, wait. 507 00:37:33,209 --> 00:37:34,461 (HENRY SHUSHING) 508 00:37:35,044 --> 00:37:36,671 (STUTTERS)No. 509 00:37:37,422 --> 00:37:38,423 (SHUSHING) 510 00:37:40,675 --> 00:37:41,676 (HENRY GRUNTS) 511 00:37:41,885 --> 00:37:43,102 JARED: Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop! 512 00:37:43,678 --> 00:37:44,930 (BOTH GRUNTING) 513 00:37:46,931 --> 00:37:48,353 (MUFFLED SCREAM) 514 00:37:56,274 --> 00:37:57,321 Ow! 515 00:38:01,070 --> 00:38:02,868 (MUFFLED SCREAMS) 516 00:38:13,917 --> 00:38:15,590 MAN: (THUMPING ON DOOR) Come on, keep it down in there. 517 00:38:15,752 --> 00:38:17,595 (JARED PANTING) (HENRY GROANS) 518 00:38:39,150 --> 00:38:40,527 (PANTING) 519 00:38:44,697 --> 00:38:45,698 (SNIFFLES) 520 00:38:47,367 --> 00:38:49,119 HENRY: (VOICE BREAKING) What the hell is wrong with me? 521 00:38:51,162 --> 00:38:52,459 I'm so sorry. 522 00:38:58,127 --> 00:39:00,129 I'm going to be in so much trouble. 523 00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:01,339 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 524 00:39:06,427 --> 00:39:07,849 I need to confess. 525 00:39:15,270 --> 00:39:17,272 I need to confess. Will you hear me? 526 00:39:20,483 --> 00:39:21,951 Please. Uh-huh. 527 00:39:29,075 --> 00:39:30,952 Do you remember the kid from church? 528 00:39:34,539 --> 00:39:35,882 The one in front of us. 529 00:39:40,169 --> 00:39:42,342 Something happened with me and him. 530 00:39:44,090 --> 00:39:45,592 Something pretty bad. 531 00:39:52,307 --> 00:39:54,480 You wouldn't dare tell anyone, would you? 532 00:39:56,644 --> 00:39:57,645 Please. 533 00:40:00,398 --> 00:40:01,775 Keep it between us. 534 00:40:11,367 --> 00:40:12,914 (SOBBING) 535 00:40:26,174 --> 00:40:28,848 PROFESSOR: Start with Chapter 6, please. 536 00:41:31,197 --> 00:41:33,450 (CHUCKLES) What a surprise. 537 00:41:33,741 --> 00:41:34,867 Oh! 538 00:41:42,709 --> 00:41:43,881 (PHONE RINGING) 539 00:41:54,053 --> 00:41:56,397 Hello. H EN RY: Is this Mrs- Nancy Eamons? 540 00:41:56,472 --> 00:41:57,598 This is she. 541 00:41:57,682 --> 00:41:59,434 I'm a counselor at Danning College. 542 00:42:00,351 --> 00:42:04,481 I'm afraid I have some disturbing news about your son's behavior at school. 543 00:42:04,564 --> 00:42:05,565 What? 544 00:42:05,898 --> 00:42:07,241 What about him? 545 00:42:08,359 --> 00:42:10,032 Did he give you a name? MARSHALL: I need you to answer my question. 546 00:42:10,111 --> 00:42:11,829 If he gave you a name... Please, Jared, just answer. 547 00:42:11,904 --> 00:42:12,905 I'm just saying. Why wouldn't he... 548 00:42:12,989 --> 00:42:13,990 Have you been doing the things he said? 549 00:42:14,115 --> 00:42:15,662 Why wouldn't he give you a name? Come on, son, enough. 550 00:42:15,992 --> 00:42:16,959 Tell me the truth. 551 00:42:17,076 --> 00:42:20,706 I'm asking questions, too. He didn't give me a name. I don't... 552 00:42:20,788 --> 00:42:21,755 JARED: The guy's full of shit. 553 00:42:21,873 --> 00:42:23,341 He's telling a bunch of lies. Now, you will not talk like that 554 00:42:23,416 --> 00:42:24,542 in this house in front of your mother. 555 00:42:24,625 --> 00:42:25,717 You just watch your mouth. 556 00:42:25,793 --> 00:42:28,387 Nancy, if... If you could just give us a moment, you know, 557 00:42:28,504 --> 00:42:29,505 just to... I'm... I'm leaving... 558 00:42:29,589 --> 00:42:30,932 Sit down. You will not leave the room. 559 00:42:31,007 --> 00:42:32,304 You will sit down, boy. 560 00:42:32,884 --> 00:42:35,103 You will sit down. It's bullshit, Dad. It's bullshit. 561 00:42:35,178 --> 00:42:36,976 I just asked you to watch your mouth. 562 00:42:38,890 --> 00:42:39,891 (NANCY CLEARS THROAT) 563 00:42:40,099 --> 00:42:42,898 I think, um, he said he was a counselor, 564 00:42:42,977 --> 00:42:45,071 and then... And I asked for his name 565 00:42:45,146 --> 00:42:46,568 and then I asked for... Nancy. 566 00:42:46,647 --> 00:42:48,069 You see? His number and he didn't... 567 00:42:48,149 --> 00:42:49,241 Nancy, please. 568 00:42:49,567 --> 00:42:50,693 Dad, I... 569 00:42:51,402 --> 00:42:52,995 He's made all of this up. 570 00:42:54,363 --> 00:42:55,660 Let's just sit here. 571 00:42:55,782 --> 00:42:58,035 We're just going to talk calmly. NANCY: All right. All right. 572 00:42:59,827 --> 00:43:02,000 JARED: No, Dad. (EXHALES) Jared. 573 00:43:06,501 --> 00:43:08,754 I just need you to tell me the truth, that's all. 574 00:43:09,420 --> 00:43:13,266 What this man says of you, Jared. 575 00:43:14,967 --> 00:43:16,264 Are you a homosexual? 576 00:43:20,515 --> 00:43:21,516 Jared. 577 00:43:22,642 --> 00:43:23,894 We are not finished. 578 00:43:24,018 --> 00:43:27,022 IanL because you won't listen. Honey.Honey. 579 00:43:27,522 --> 00:43:30,025 What this man says, is it true? What, this full-of-shit guy... 580 00:43:30,108 --> 00:43:31,610 Answer me. ...who is not a counselor, 581 00:43:31,818 --> 00:43:34,321 who raped a kid at his own church 582 00:43:35,613 --> 00:43:36,956 and God knows who else. 583 00:43:37,865 --> 00:43:39,333 Dad, you're hurting me. 584 00:43:39,700 --> 00:43:41,668 Marshall. His name is Henry Wallace. 585 00:43:41,828 --> 00:43:44,172 He's... He's not a counselor, he's a student. 586 00:43:44,247 --> 00:43:45,590 All right. And... And... 587 00:43:46,666 --> 00:43:48,009 He told me he did some bad things. 588 00:43:48,084 --> 00:43:50,086 I think he thinks I'm going to tell on him. 589 00:43:51,671 --> 00:43:52,763 Honey. 590 00:43:54,507 --> 00:43:55,554 Son. 591 00:43:58,511 --> 00:43:59,888 (NANCY BREATHING HEAVILY) 592 00:44:01,681 --> 00:44:02,933 (DOOR CLOSES) 593 00:44:08,104 --> 00:44:09,105 MALE VOICE: Fight! 594 00:44:19,157 --> 00:44:20,454 Go to war! 595 00:44:32,295 --> 00:44:33,842 Your mother's making dinner. 596 00:44:36,257 --> 00:44:37,725 I'm okay. I'm not hungry. 597 00:44:43,764 --> 00:44:46,438 I want you to write down this man's name, 598 00:44:47,185 --> 00:44:51,531 his church, phone number if you have it. Any information at all. 599 00:44:52,607 --> 00:44:55,360 I don't want you to talk to him. I ain't going to talk to him. 600 00:44:56,444 --> 00:44:59,493 If he's been doing what you say, then he needs to be reported. 601 00:45:03,409 --> 00:45:04,410 Okay. 602 00:45:05,953 --> 00:45:09,674 Now, you know what I did? I invited Chloe and her parents for lunch tomorrow. 603 00:45:09,790 --> 00:45:11,508 I was thinking it would be fun if you could join in. 604 00:45:12,668 --> 00:45:15,421 Missing one more day of class ain't gonna end the world. 605 00:45:16,631 --> 00:45:18,258 You know, Jared... (SIGHS) 606 00:45:19,508 --> 00:45:21,181 ...as far as I can tell, 607 00:45:22,345 --> 00:45:24,598 we've only got one God-given right. 608 00:45:25,389 --> 00:45:28,734 And that is when a man and a woman come together. 609 00:45:28,809 --> 00:45:31,688 They may create life. 610 00:45:32,563 --> 00:45:35,737 You think how much God must love mankind 611 00:45:35,858 --> 00:45:38,486 to give us that awesome responsibility. Dad. 612 00:45:39,820 --> 00:45:41,993 It's really not true. 613 00:45:48,788 --> 00:45:51,462 You know what I think about these type of games, too. 614 00:45:53,084 --> 00:45:55,382 Be respectful to your mother when she calls. 615 00:45:56,504 --> 00:45:57,596 You come down and eat. 616 00:46:03,844 --> 00:46:04,845 (SIGHS) 617 00:46:26,617 --> 00:46:27,618 (CLATTERS) 618 00:46:32,581 --> 00:46:33,582 NANCY: Honey. 619 00:46:33,874 --> 00:46:37,094 All right. You want me to stop with the games? 620 00:46:37,420 --> 00:46:38,421 I'll stop with them. 621 00:46:38,963 --> 00:46:40,465 I broke up with Chloe 622 00:46:41,465 --> 00:46:42,762 because“. 623 00:46:46,470 --> 00:46:47,471 (SIGHS) 624 00:46:48,764 --> 00:46:51,017 We broke up because I think it's true 625 00:46:52,101 --> 00:46:53,273 about me. 626 00:46:55,813 --> 00:46:57,156 God help me. 627 00:46:59,650 --> 00:47:01,118 I think about men. 628 00:47:10,328 --> 00:47:11,329 (SHUDDERS) 629 00:47:15,041 --> 00:47:16,588 I don't know why. 630 00:47:19,170 --> 00:47:20,422 I'm so sorry. 631 00:47:46,238 --> 00:47:48,536 (VEHICLE APPROACHING) 632 00:47:48,616 --> 00:47:49,788 (ENGINE STOPS) 633 00:47:59,293 --> 00:48:00,590 (MEN TALKING INDISTINCTLY) 634 00:48:05,966 --> 00:48:07,263 (DOORBELL RINGING) 635 00:48:13,265 --> 00:48:14,687 MARSHALL: God bless you, pastor. 636 00:48:18,229 --> 00:48:19,446 (SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY) 637 00:48:19,605 --> 00:48:21,482 BIG JIM: Are you okay? MARSHALL: I've had better days, 638 00:48:21,565 --> 00:48:22,782 I can tell you that. 639 00:48:30,991 --> 00:48:32,208 (KNOCKING ON DOOR) 640 00:48:32,368 --> 00:48:34,587 Just a minute. Just a minute. JARED: IVIOm? 641 00:48:34,662 --> 00:48:37,131 Hold on. (CHUCKLES) All right. 642 00:48:39,959 --> 00:48:41,051 (SIGHS) 643 00:48:43,963 --> 00:48:46,136 Why are Pastor Wilkes and Jim Picard here? 644 00:48:46,966 --> 00:48:49,640 Pastor Wilkes has dealt with this kind of thing before. 645 00:48:52,555 --> 00:48:55,058 Jim has a son, Eddie, who, um... 646 00:48:55,141 --> 00:48:57,109 You were a little boy, but... 647 00:48:58,394 --> 00:48:59,486 Anyway- 648 00:49:00,396 --> 00:49:02,398 What did they do to him? Oh, no. 649 00:49:02,815 --> 00:49:04,863 You silly thing. 650 00:49:04,942 --> 00:49:06,910 They didn't do anything to him. 651 00:49:07,069 --> 00:49:08,946 They did things for him, 652 00:49:09,864 --> 00:49:10,865 all right? 653 00:49:12,366 --> 00:49:14,744 Just like they're gonna do things for you. 654 00:49:15,119 --> 00:49:17,121 Your father's wondering... 655 00:49:18,330 --> 00:49:20,332 He's wondering how to help. 656 00:49:23,586 --> 00:49:24,803 Come here. 657 00:49:25,212 --> 00:49:26,964 It's all gonna be all right. 658 00:49:27,548 --> 00:49:28,549 (NANCY SIGHS) 659 00:49:30,259 --> 00:49:32,136 We've got one question for you,son, 660 00:49:33,053 --> 00:49:35,306 and we're gonna let you sleep. It's been a big day. 661 00:49:37,933 --> 00:49:40,982 I have shared our conversations 662 00:49:42,354 --> 00:49:45,984 with these two fine, upstanding men and I have asked them for their guidance. 663 00:49:48,777 --> 00:49:51,951 (SIGHS) I can tell you right now we don't have all the answers. 664 00:49:52,364 --> 00:49:56,790 But I do know that you gonna hold the key to the next step. 665 00:49:58,204 --> 00:50:01,128 Your mother and I, we cannot see 666 00:50:01,916 --> 00:50:04,214 a way that you can live under this roof, 667 00:50:04,752 --> 00:50:07,380 attend service and work at the dealership 668 00:50:08,756 --> 00:50:11,976 if you're going to fundamentally go against the grain of our beliefs 669 00:50:13,135 --> 00:50:14,808 and against God himself. 670 00:50:17,556 --> 00:50:19,524 I'm gonna ask you that question now, son. 671 00:50:23,729 --> 00:50:25,322 In your heart, 672 00:50:28,692 --> 00:50:30,490 do you want to change? 673 00:50:48,879 --> 00:50:49,880 (SIGHS) 674 00:50:51,298 --> 00:50:52,390 Yes. 675 00:50:53,759 --> 00:50:55,386 Yes, I want to change. 676 00:51:00,224 --> 00:51:01,692 Come a little closer, son. 677 00:51:02,393 --> 00:51:03,736 Pastor Wilkes, 678 00:51:04,937 --> 00:51:08,237 could you ask Jesus to shine his light 679 00:51:09,233 --> 00:51:10,906 on my boy at this time? 680 00:51:13,070 --> 00:51:16,324 Heavenly Father, I ask your blessing for this family. 681 00:51:16,407 --> 00:51:17,875 Give them strength. 682 00:51:18,659 --> 00:51:20,582 Unleash your power 683 00:51:21,453 --> 00:51:25,424 for one of your flock, Jared, who has lost his way. 684 00:51:25,791 --> 00:51:28,886 We pray, Lord, that you make him pure 685 00:51:29,628 --> 00:51:32,347 and that you return him safely back to us 686 00:51:32,423 --> 00:51:38,055 and see that the errors of his way are nothing more than a momentary straying. 687 00:51:39,305 --> 00:51:42,354 We pray that he see the path of faith 688 00:51:42,683 --> 00:51:45,903 and that he strive to be honest 689 00:51:46,270 --> 00:51:49,240 and that he then find the joy of a new life. 690 00:51:50,065 --> 00:51:51,817 In His name we pray. 691 00:51:52,359 --> 00:51:53,576 MARSHALL: Amen. 692 00:51:54,153 --> 00:51:55,200 Jared. 693 00:52:01,035 --> 00:52:02,878 How's college treating ya? 694 00:52:03,454 --> 00:52:06,298 JARED: Uh, it's going good. Yeah. It's good. 695 00:52:06,790 --> 00:52:09,919 Your father's asked me to take some of your blood. 696 00:52:13,505 --> 00:52:15,178 He wants me to... 697 00:52:15,591 --> 00:52:17,969 To check for testosterone levels. 698 00:52:21,597 --> 00:52:25,943 I'm in a bit of a bind here, Jared, and I... I said this to your mother, too. 699 00:52:26,018 --> 00:52:30,239 Now, lam a religious woman, there's... There's no... No question, 700 00:52:30,314 --> 00:52:32,567 but I have also been to medical school, 701 00:52:33,567 --> 00:52:37,947 and, well, you can say that I hold science in one hand 702 00:52:38,030 --> 00:52:41,876 and God in the other, and that is not always an easy balance. 703 00:52:43,118 --> 00:52:46,793 And I know that everybody would like for me to say otherwise 704 00:52:46,872 --> 00:52:49,716 and send you down to the pharmacy for a... 705 00:52:49,792 --> 00:52:53,888 A pill that would magically fix you, but that's not gonna happen. 706 00:52:54,338 --> 00:52:56,215 But I'm gonna take your blood and I know... 707 00:52:56,298 --> 00:52:57,891 I know what it's gonna show me. 708 00:52:58,509 --> 00:53:02,855 That you are a perfectly normal, very healthy teenage boy. 709 00:53:05,057 --> 00:53:09,403 Jared, it's not my place to tell you that your parents are wrong, 710 00:53:09,770 --> 00:53:12,444 but let's say that they are wrong. 711 00:53:13,107 --> 00:53:16,862 I understand your father signed you up for a program next month. 712 00:53:19,029 --> 00:53:23,626 Whatever happens next, it is still your choice. 713 00:53:24,743 --> 00:53:26,962 It may not feel that way, but it is. 714 00:53:28,330 --> 00:53:29,627 You're 18. 715 00:53:32,626 --> 00:53:37,006 Do you have anything that you'd... You'd like to say to me? 716 00:53:38,382 --> 00:53:41,135 Any... Any questions? 717 00:53:45,139 --> 00:53:46,265 No. 718 00:53:51,019 --> 00:53:52,191 VICTOR: Jared? 719 00:53:53,939 --> 00:53:55,065 Morning. 720 00:54:05,868 --> 00:54:10,089 So, I wanted to talk to you about these. 721 00:54:11,582 --> 00:54:13,459 Uh, your writing. 722 00:54:15,169 --> 00:54:21,427 This "Remy and Lucy met at midnight under the stars on Willow Street.“ 723 00:54:23,302 --> 00:54:25,350 What... Tell me about these. 724 00:54:27,514 --> 00:54:29,937 It's... It's just... It's a story. 725 00:54:32,186 --> 00:54:35,440 It's a love story about a boy and a girl, correct? 726 00:54:35,564 --> 00:54:37,282 Yeah. But were you thinking 727 00:54:37,357 --> 00:54:40,486 about two boys when you wrote this? 728 00:54:42,362 --> 00:54:44,239 No. Be honest. 729 00:54:44,823 --> 00:54:47,042 No, it's just a story. 730 00:54:48,118 --> 00:54:50,371 It's just an assignment forcoflege. 731 00:54:53,040 --> 00:54:56,010 Jared, I've seen your reading list for college. I have it here, 732 00:54:56,084 --> 00:54:59,384 and listen, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Lolita, 733 00:55:00,255 --> 00:55:02,132 I mean, some of these... These books, Jared, 734 00:55:02,216 --> 00:55:04,218 considering everything that's going on for you right now, 735 00:55:04,301 --> 00:55:06,053 I don't know that college is really the best thing 736 00:55:06,136 --> 00:55:07,763 for you to be pursuing at all. 737 00:55:09,473 --> 00:55:13,728 A year with us may be a much, much better use of your time, 738 00:55:15,979 --> 00:55:17,697 given everything that I see, 739 00:55:19,858 --> 00:55:21,656 and everything that's at stake. 740 00:55:24,363 --> 00:55:26,661 And I'm willing to say that to your parents. 741 00:55:29,243 --> 00:55:31,337 Listen, I've had many wonderful conversations 742 00:55:31,411 --> 00:55:32,913 with your parents. Lovely people. 743 00:55:32,996 --> 00:55:35,465 So, I know some of your story. 744 00:55:35,916 --> 00:55:39,546 And I know that there is quite a discrepancy 745 00:55:39,628 --> 00:55:43,098 between what they were told and what you said. 746 00:55:44,550 --> 00:55:49,056 And you gotta understand that they don't know what to believe, 747 00:55:49,137 --> 00:55:51,265 and that's very troubling for them. 748 00:55:53,350 --> 00:55:55,068 But I think that you and I know 749 00:55:55,143 --> 00:55:57,566 that there is a whole lot more to the story, 750 00:55:58,105 --> 00:56:02,360 and, you know, we're not here on mere thoughts alone. 751 00:56:06,738 --> 00:56:09,457 Jared, the... The people that get the most out of this place 752 00:56:09,533 --> 00:56:14,004 are the people that are just really brave and honest 753 00:56:14,079 --> 00:56:17,333 and lay everything on the table, ugly as it seems, 754 00:56:17,416 --> 00:56:20,169 and fess up to what God already sees. 755 00:56:22,880 --> 00:56:27,886 And then, I can really truly assess what is the best future for you. 756 00:56:31,096 --> 00:56:32,473 Okay, son? 757 00:56:35,684 --> 00:56:37,778 Yeah. Yeah. 758 00:56:39,771 --> 00:56:40,772 (SIGHS) 759 00:56:41,982 --> 00:56:46,112 GARY: Dear Heavenly Father, today I ask your forgiveness for my sins. 760 00:56:47,613 --> 00:56:51,288 For a year, we lived together under the cover of being roommates. 761 00:56:51,825 --> 00:56:56,547 But in reality, the whole time I was committing the sin of sodomy. 762 00:56:57,623 --> 00:57:00,968 And then my family discovered the truth and brought me back to my senses. 763 00:57:01,376 --> 00:57:03,799 They helped me realize that I was fooling myself. 764 00:57:05,380 --> 00:57:07,132 That I was being fooled. 765 00:57:08,383 --> 00:57:12,058 That I was seduced into a life of sin by all sorts of sinful people. 766 00:57:13,347 --> 00:57:16,351 And I knew in my heart that I had forsaken Jesus for Satan. 767 00:57:17,017 --> 00:57:18,018 But now, 768 00:57:21,939 --> 00:57:23,657 lam awake to my sins. 769 00:57:24,274 --> 00:57:25,742 I'm enlightened, 770 00:57:26,151 --> 00:57:27,653 I'm here with all of you 771 00:57:27,945 --> 00:57:31,700 and I'm disgusted at the person that I once was. 772 00:57:34,368 --> 00:57:36,462 I want to ask God for his forgiveness, 773 00:57:38,288 --> 00:57:40,586 and I want to thank all of you guys, 774 00:57:41,041 --> 00:57:42,543 especially you, Mr. Sykes, 775 00:57:43,210 --> 00:57:45,804 for helping me get back on the path to righteousness. 776 00:57:45,963 --> 00:57:47,510 We love you, Gary. 777 00:57:48,298 --> 00:57:49,925 ALL: We love you, Gary. 778 00:57:50,884 --> 00:57:52,511 (COUNTRY some PLAYING ON RADIO) 779 00:58:05,565 --> 00:58:07,488 Please don't do that, honey. You know I... 780 00:58:07,609 --> 00:58:10,032 Mom, who did that happen to and when? 781 00:58:10,153 --> 00:58:12,030 Seriously. Do you know? (SIGHS) 782 00:58:12,114 --> 00:58:13,991 Do you actually know who that happened to? 783 00:58:17,703 --> 00:58:18,955 Itneverhappened. 784 00:58:19,997 --> 00:58:20,998 (SCOFFS) 785 00:58:24,167 --> 00:58:25,919 Parents want to protect their kids. 786 00:58:26,044 --> 00:58:29,173 So they feed them lies. I think that they're okay lies. 787 00:58:29,256 --> 00:58:32,055 What? Like not telling me how long I might be here for? 788 00:58:34,511 --> 00:58:37,310 You know the whole thing you and Dad are paying for here 789 00:58:37,514 --> 00:58:40,267 is all about how messed up we are by our parents. 790 00:58:40,642 --> 00:58:43,646 They want to know about you. That's why you can't know all about it, 791 00:58:43,729 --> 00:58:45,652 because then they wouldn't get their money out of you. 792 00:58:46,815 --> 00:58:49,068 What have I ever done to you, hmm? 793 00:58:49,609 --> 00:58:52,328 Talk about me all you want. My conscious is clean. 794 00:58:52,404 --> 00:58:53,405 (SIGHS) 795 00:59:02,080 --> 00:59:03,457 Honey. 796 00:59:19,514 --> 00:59:20,561 (SIGHS) 797 00:59:21,767 --> 00:59:23,769 JARED: I'm gonna go for a run. Is that okay, Mom? 798 00:59:24,811 --> 00:59:25,812 Mmm-hmm. 799 00:59:36,531 --> 00:59:38,124 (PANTING) 800 01:00:22,077 --> 01:00:23,203 Fuck you! 801 01:00:26,581 --> 01:00:28,003 Fuck you! 802 01:00:30,669 --> 01:00:32,262 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 803 01:00:36,675 --> 01:00:38,143 Fuck you! 804 01:00:40,595 --> 01:00:42,063 (NANCY PRAYING INDISTINCTLY) 805 01:00:42,180 --> 01:00:44,274 Please, please give me strength. 806 01:00:44,349 --> 01:00:45,726 I need your help. 807 01:00:46,685 --> 01:00:47,686 Amen. 808 01:00:48,645 --> 01:00:50,113 (SHOWER RUNNING) 809 01:00:56,111 --> 01:00:57,112 (SIGHS) 810 01:01:05,120 --> 01:01:07,748 I'm reading it. No debate. 811 01:01:08,540 --> 01:01:10,542 I have a right to know what they're teaching you. 812 01:01:11,334 --> 01:01:14,429 I don't see why anyone would read it unless you absolutely had to. 813 01:01:15,213 --> 01:01:16,965 I need to know what's inside. 814 01:01:17,966 --> 01:01:20,219 There are tons of spelling errors in it. 815 01:01:20,969 --> 01:01:23,188 I almost want to mark up a copy for them. 816 01:01:24,306 --> 01:01:26,900 But that would take away the only real enjoyment you get 817 01:01:26,975 --> 01:01:29,603 from reading it, because I guess it's 818 01:01:31,104 --> 01:01:33,232 actually not much fun to be there. 819 01:01:36,818 --> 01:01:40,118 And I'm starting to wonder whether it's really going to change me. 820 01:01:44,951 --> 01:01:45,952 (SIGHS) 821 01:02:01,676 --> 01:02:05,977 "We always come back to Dog's true design." 822 01:02:12,145 --> 01:02:13,647 Almighty Dog. 823 01:02:40,131 --> 01:02:41,633 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 824 01:02:46,805 --> 01:02:49,183 MAN: Welcome to God Versus Science... 825 01:02:54,396 --> 01:02:55,739 Thank you. 826 01:03:33,184 --> 01:03:34,356 (INAUDIBLE) 827 01:03:38,773 --> 01:03:40,275 JARED". Where are you from, Xavier? 828 01:03:41,484 --> 01:03:42,986 XAVIER: I was born in Vienna. 829 01:03:43,570 --> 01:03:46,995 I ended up in Canada, and now I'm here. 830 01:03:56,416 --> 01:03:57,838 JARED: Do you believe in God? 831 01:03:59,044 --> 01:04:00,261 I do,yeah. 832 01:04:01,921 --> 01:04:02,922 Wow. 833 01:04:04,674 --> 01:04:08,224 I question it, but I still believe in God, yeah. 834 01:04:15,268 --> 01:04:16,770 Who created the Earth? 835 01:04:16,853 --> 01:04:17,854 (CHUCKLES) 836 01:04:19,147 --> 01:04:20,740 You like a little small talk, huh? 837 01:04:22,525 --> 01:04:24,118 Do you believe in the Devil? 838 01:04:27,572 --> 01:04:28,573 (EXHALES) 839 01:04:29,199 --> 01:04:30,576 Did he look like me? 840 01:04:33,370 --> 01:04:34,713 I don't know. 841 01:04:47,258 --> 01:04:48,259 (SNIFFS) 842 01:04:51,262 --> 01:04:53,264 Do you know Job from the Bible? 843 01:04:54,474 --> 01:04:55,851 Not personally. 844 01:04:56,434 --> 01:04:59,654 I hear he's not great company. Always complaining. 845 01:05:00,563 --> 01:05:01,564 (CHUCKLES) 846 01:05:04,109 --> 01:05:05,827 I imagine I'm him sometimes. 847 01:05:06,694 --> 01:05:10,449 And that God and the Devil are having a bet over me. 848 01:05:10,865 --> 01:05:13,163 That one day God will let me in 849 01:05:13,243 --> 01:05:16,247 on the experiment he was having to test me. 850 01:05:19,249 --> 01:05:21,923 I think we're our own God. 851 01:05:23,503 --> 01:05:25,380 I mean, I think he's in us. 852 01:05:26,965 --> 01:05:30,811 In all of us, not, you know, somewhere 853 01:05:31,177 --> 01:05:33,521 hiding and watching. 854 01:05:45,024 --> 01:05:46,321 Stay with me. 855 01:05:48,111 --> 01:05:49,533 Nothing needs to happen. 856 01:05:51,239 --> 01:05:52,536 I swear. 857 01:05:55,952 --> 01:05:58,546 I'll prove to you that God won't strike you down. 858 01:06:36,659 --> 01:06:38,252 CAMERON: You wronged me, Dad... 859 01:06:39,287 --> 01:06:41,335 And I hate the way... VICTOR: Louder, Cameron. 860 01:06:41,623 --> 01:06:45,093 Can't hear you. Come on. I'll bring him closer, there he is. 861 01:06:46,878 --> 01:06:50,428 You wronged me, Dad, and I hate you for the way that you treated me 862 01:06:50,548 --> 01:06:52,175 since you found out about my problems. 863 01:06:52,258 --> 01:06:53,805 No, about your sin. 864 01:06:54,260 --> 01:06:55,762 Say that. (CAMERON SIGHS) 865 01:06:55,845 --> 01:06:58,098 "About my sins." Go! 866 01:06:58,598 --> 01:06:59,770 (EXHALES) 867 01:07:03,144 --> 01:07:05,738 "About my sins," come on, Cameron. 868 01:07:07,690 --> 01:07:11,194 "My homosexual sins." Come on, Cameron. 869 01:07:12,070 --> 01:07:13,538 Cameron! I can go. 870 01:07:14,614 --> 01:07:15,786 I don't... I don't mind... 871 01:07:15,865 --> 01:07:19,290 VICTOR: No, no, no. Jared, everybody gets a turn. This is Cameron's turn. 872 01:07:19,536 --> 01:07:22,961 "About my sins!" Come on! Found out about my sins. 873 01:07:25,333 --> 01:07:28,177 I hate that you never listen to me or acknowledge me. 874 01:07:28,294 --> 01:07:29,591 And when you do acknowledge me, 875 01:07:29,671 --> 01:07:31,469 it's to make fun of me in front of my friends. 876 01:07:31,548 --> 01:07:33,141 "It's to make fun of me." 877 01:07:34,133 --> 01:07:36,101 To make fun of me in front of my friends. 878 01:07:37,220 --> 01:07:40,815 And that time that you told me that you wished I'd never been born. 879 01:07:41,933 --> 01:07:43,230 That really hurt me. 880 01:07:48,565 --> 01:07:49,737 VICTOR: Cameron... 881 01:07:51,484 --> 01:07:55,284 Now, you say that you're angry, 882 01:07:56,155 --> 01:07:58,408 but quite frankly, I don't really see it. 883 01:07:59,701 --> 01:08:02,500 Well, what's going on in there, Cameron, huh? 884 01:08:04,080 --> 01:08:05,923 Do you want to change? 885 01:08:06,791 --> 01:08:09,260 Now you're going to wish you hadn't been born, son, 886 01:08:09,335 --> 01:08:13,465 because God will not love you the way that you are right now. 887 01:08:14,757 --> 01:08:17,226 Unless you really want to change. 888 01:08:18,886 --> 01:08:20,559 Well? Come on! 889 01:08:25,768 --> 01:08:26,985 (SIGHS) 890 01:08:28,479 --> 01:08:29,947 Well, I guess not. 891 01:08:30,106 --> 01:08:33,110 I guess not. Okay. Let's take a break. 892 01:08:35,028 --> 01:08:38,498 And you are going to stay here until you are ready to go. 893 01:08:38,615 --> 01:08:40,913 Everybody but Cameron, take a break. 894 01:08:42,452 --> 01:08:43,704 (EXHALES) 895 01:08:45,830 --> 01:08:48,674 I don't care if you sit there all day, son. 896 01:09:08,144 --> 01:09:11,114 JON: Is this all a game to you? JARED: What do you mean? 897 01:09:12,398 --> 01:09:13,695 Listen, man. 898 01:09:14,275 --> 01:09:16,403 You gotta think about why you went there. 899 01:09:16,694 --> 01:09:19,447 You're trying to bail him out? Seriously? 900 01:09:19,822 --> 01:09:21,495 And touching him like that? 901 01:09:21,991 --> 01:09:23,834 Do you think no one saw? 902 01:09:23,910 --> 01:09:25,287 You saw him. 903 01:09:25,370 --> 01:09:28,249 He was very upset. I didn't mean anything by it. 904 01:09:28,331 --> 01:09:29,833 I should report you. 905 01:09:29,999 --> 01:09:32,923 True ownership, man. Okay. 906 01:09:33,002 --> 01:09:36,176 This is what moral inventory is all about. 907 01:09:37,006 --> 01:09:39,225 And you gotta quit staring at me all the time. 908 01:09:39,801 --> 01:09:42,145 These are the urges that we gotta stamp out. 909 01:09:42,345 --> 01:09:44,268 Okay, you gotta control this. 910 01:09:46,015 --> 01:09:48,359 Do you even want this to work? Of course I do. 911 01:09:49,185 --> 01:09:50,903 We're all trying to make this work. 912 01:09:50,978 --> 01:09:53,527 I'm having a tough time, too, just like you are. 913 01:09:54,190 --> 01:09:56,284 Listen, I'm fine. 914 01:09:56,359 --> 01:09:57,451 (MICHAEL CLEARS THROAT) 915 01:10:03,700 --> 01:10:05,418 It doesn't seem like it. 916 01:10:28,182 --> 01:10:29,650 BRANDON: Hey, what are you doing in here alone? 917 01:10:29,726 --> 01:10:32,400 You're meant to attend bathroom breaks with a staff member. 918 01:10:38,067 --> 01:10:39,990 What? Now you don't have to pee? 919 01:10:44,949 --> 01:10:46,826 Or are you going to do something solo? 920 01:10:49,036 --> 01:10:50,754 That's why they make them rules. 921 01:10:53,833 --> 01:10:55,631 Not to be trusted. (JARED URINATING) 922 01:10:56,335 --> 01:10:58,303 Not at this stage of the game. 923 01:11:02,508 --> 01:11:03,509 Hmm. 924 01:11:04,260 --> 01:11:06,137 Sounds like Morse code. 925 01:11:07,805 --> 01:11:09,682 Sending me a message, 926 01:11:10,558 --> 01:11:12,026 faggot? (STOPS URINATING) 927 01:11:20,568 --> 01:11:21,945 (CONTINUES URINATING) 928 01:11:26,949 --> 01:11:28,121 (FLUSHING) 929 01:11:58,773 --> 01:12:00,650 GARY: Starting to see it for what it is? 930 01:12:07,907 --> 01:12:09,124 You Okay? 931 01:12:10,034 --> 01:12:12,378 I'm fine. I'm fine. 932 01:12:13,830 --> 01:12:15,628 I'm going to give you some advice. 933 01:12:19,460 --> 01:12:20,928 Play the part. 934 01:12:23,130 --> 01:12:24,598 Show them it's working. 935 01:12:24,799 --> 01:12:26,267 You're getting better. 936 01:12:29,637 --> 01:12:31,981 Fake it until you make it, right'? 937 01:12:34,183 --> 01:12:37,733 You don't want to end up in one of those houses for any length of time. 938 01:12:38,771 --> 01:12:41,024 I've heard the stories and they're not good. 939 01:12:41,899 --> 01:12:44,118 And that's where you're likely gonna end up. 940 01:12:44,819 --> 01:12:46,321 Sarah's already there. 941 01:12:47,613 --> 01:12:49,661 So, play the part, man. 942 01:12:52,243 --> 01:12:55,793 And then, once you're home, you gotta figure out what to do next. 943 01:12:57,540 --> 01:13:01,170 If it comes down to it, you may have to walk away from everything. 944 01:13:03,421 --> 01:13:04,718 Everyone. (DOOR OPENS) 945 01:13:08,259 --> 01:13:09,636 Thank you for today, Michael. 946 01:13:10,887 --> 01:13:12,104 See you tomorrow. Mmm-hmm. 947 01:13:19,061 --> 01:13:22,486 You're gonna be on the podium any day now, so you should have a plan. 948 01:13:24,066 --> 01:13:26,410 Unless you really think you can change. 949 01:13:28,613 --> 01:13:30,866 Or even want to. (VEHICLE APPROACHING) 950 01:13:30,990 --> 01:13:31,991 (HORN HONKING) 951 01:13:38,289 --> 01:13:39,711 JARED: I don't want to be here anymore. 952 01:13:39,832 --> 01:13:41,926 MARSHALL: (SIGHING) It's a trial. It... 953 01:13:42,001 --> 01:13:43,093 JARED: I don't feel good here. 954 01:13:43,169 --> 01:13:45,046 Nobody feels good about you being there, Jared. 955 01:13:45,129 --> 01:13:48,383 ldon%“.ldonWH. I'm not sure if I feel any different. 956 01:13:48,466 --> 01:13:52,221 Son, son, you're not even halfway through. 957 01:13:53,387 --> 01:13:55,185 Why didn't you tell me how long I might stay for? 958 01:13:55,264 --> 01:13:57,266 None of us knows the answer to that, Jared. 959 01:13:57,350 --> 01:13:59,398 It's kind of up to you. You know, you just gotta give it a chance. 960 01:13:59,477 --> 01:14:01,525 This is like the book of Matthew. 961 01:14:01,604 --> 01:14:03,026 The Devil's not going to ask you once, 962 01:14:03,105 --> 01:14:04,857 he's going to ask you over and over again, son. 963 01:14:04,941 --> 01:14:07,945 And you have just gotta find the strength and commitment inside you. 964 01:14:08,903 --> 01:14:11,247 You can get through this, okay? 965 01:14:12,365 --> 01:14:13,662 Okay? 966 01:14:14,533 --> 01:14:17,161 All right. It's late. Get some sleep. 967 01:14:17,328 --> 01:14:19,626 Good night. Good night. 968 01:14:58,119 --> 01:15:00,872 Jared? You're gonna be late. 969 01:15:33,237 --> 01:15:34,910 JARED: I had thoughts of men. 970 01:15:35,239 --> 01:15:36,786 Boys at school. 971 01:15:38,200 --> 01:15:39,372 At college, I... 972 01:15:42,455 --> 01:15:43,877 My imagination. 973 01:15:47,668 --> 01:15:49,670 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 974 01:15:50,254 --> 01:15:53,224 Hey, what's going on? I have no idea. 975 01:15:58,012 --> 01:16:00,765 Michael, what's going on? Just grab a tie. 976 01:16:06,896 --> 01:16:10,491 REVEREND NEIL: Sadly, we are gathered here today to say farewell 977 01:16:11,817 --> 01:16:15,287 to our son, our friend, and our brother, 978 01:16:15,362 --> 01:16:16,659 Cameron Van Heusen, 979 01:16:16,739 --> 01:16:22,166 who by his own making last night, fell prey to Satan's wishes. 980 01:16:24,038 --> 01:16:25,711 Brother Van Heusen, is this 981 01:16:26,332 --> 01:16:28,005 what you want for your son? 982 01:16:29,001 --> 01:16:30,048 No. 983 01:16:30,252 --> 01:16:32,721 Young man, is this you? 984 01:16:33,881 --> 01:16:35,758 Brother Cameron, is this what you want? 985 01:16:36,509 --> 01:16:38,682 CAMERON: (SOBBING) No. Both of you, come on. 986 01:16:41,055 --> 01:16:42,602 Bring him down here. 987 01:16:44,183 --> 01:16:46,481 CAMERON'S DAD: Let's go. Who's gonna strike this demon down? 988 01:16:46,560 --> 01:16:47,857 CAMERON'S DAD: I Will. 989 01:16:51,107 --> 01:16:53,656 REVEREND NEIL: Out, you demon! Hit it! (CAMERON GRUNTS) 990 01:16:53,734 --> 01:16:55,577 Get out of him! REVEREND NEIL: That's it. 991 01:16:56,028 --> 01:16:58,747 CAMERON'S DAD: Out! REVEREND NEIL: Leave, demon! Leave! 992 01:17:15,464 --> 01:17:16,590 (CAMERON SOBBING) 993 01:17:17,967 --> 01:17:19,139 (GROANING) 994 01:17:37,111 --> 01:17:38,658 (CAMERON CONTINUES SOBBING) 995 01:18:44,345 --> 01:18:45,437 (WOMAN LAUGHING) 996 01:18:47,848 --> 01:18:49,350 (GIRLS TALKING INDISTINCTLY) 997 01:18:55,856 --> 01:18:57,449 GIRL: Sarah, come on! 998 01:19:31,267 --> 01:19:32,985 XAVIER: Stay with me. 999 01:19:37,398 --> 01:19:40,322 I'll prove to you that God won't strike you down. 1000 01:21:09,615 --> 01:21:10,616 (MAN SIGHS) 1001 01:21:14,244 --> 01:21:15,621 All right, take your seat. 1002 01:21:15,788 --> 01:21:17,256 Welcome back, son. 1003 01:21:17,748 --> 01:21:18,749 (CAMERON SIGHS) 1004 01:21:18,832 --> 01:21:23,212 VICTOR: Now, I don't know about you all, but today, ooh, I feel invigorated. 1005 01:21:23,754 --> 01:21:26,928 And I feel hopeful and a true sense that 1006 01:21:27,383 --> 01:21:31,513 anything is possible today in this room. 1007 01:21:33,138 --> 01:21:34,890 Cameron, how do you feel, son? 1008 01:21:36,642 --> 01:21:37,894 I feel great, sir. 1009 01:21:39,645 --> 01:21:42,398 Do you feel the true presence of God in your heart? 1010 01:21:43,148 --> 01:21:44,149 Yes, sir. 1011 01:21:44,358 --> 01:21:46,736 And that feels great, doesn't it? 1012 01:21:47,361 --> 01:21:48,783 Yes, sir, it does. 1013 01:21:49,863 --> 01:21:50,910 For sure. 1014 01:21:52,825 --> 01:21:53,997 (SIGHS) 1015 01:21:55,160 --> 01:21:56,628 I'm happy for you, son. 1016 01:21:56,995 --> 01:21:58,121 (TAPPING ON LECTERN) 1017 01:21:58,956 --> 01:22:00,503 Moral inventory. 1018 01:22:04,753 --> 01:22:07,427 Jared, you're up, son. 1019 01:22:11,176 --> 01:22:12,223 Come on. 1020 01:22:12,803 --> 01:22:13,975 Come on, son. 1021 01:22:15,264 --> 01:22:16,811 All right. Michael. 1022 01:22:28,861 --> 01:22:31,205 And when you're ready. 1023 01:22:32,030 --> 01:22:33,247 (EXHALES) 1024 01:22:34,616 --> 01:22:36,209 "I had thoughts of men. 1025 01:22:38,412 --> 01:22:39,755 "Boys at school. 1026 01:22:41,415 --> 01:22:44,715 "On TV. On the street. In my imagination. 1027 01:22:45,502 --> 01:22:49,348 "At college I held the hand of a boy and I stayed through the night in his bed. 1028 01:22:52,801 --> 01:22:55,805 "For these thoughts and this action for which I felt regretful, 1029 01:22:55,888 --> 01:22:57,982 "I'd like to ask for God's..." VICTOR: Wait. Hold on. 1030 01:22:58,348 --> 01:22:59,349 (SIGHS) 1031 01:22:59,433 --> 01:23:00,559 Jared. 1032 01:23:02,561 --> 01:23:04,734 Come on. What else? 1033 01:23:06,523 --> 01:23:07,740 I never... 1034 01:23:08,692 --> 01:23:11,070 I stayed through the night with a boy from college, 1035 01:23:11,153 --> 01:23:12,655 but we never did anything more. 1036 01:23:12,779 --> 01:23:16,079 Listen, don't even try lying to God, Jared. 1037 01:23:16,158 --> 01:23:17,831 He already sees. 1038 01:23:18,785 --> 01:23:20,708 So, come on. What else? 1039 01:23:21,330 --> 01:23:22,331 (STUTTERS) 1040 01:23:24,208 --> 01:23:27,087 I lied on my genogram. My Uncle Chris wasn't an alcoholic. 1041 01:23:27,169 --> 01:23:29,968 Why don't you tell us about this Henry boy? 1042 01:23:32,216 --> 01:23:33,718 Thatyourdaddy told me about. 1043 01:23:34,343 --> 01:23:36,437 That's not... That's not fair. 1044 01:23:36,887 --> 01:23:37,888 Why not? 1045 01:23:38,514 --> 01:23:40,187 (STAMMERS) That's not my sin. 1046 01:23:40,474 --> 01:23:42,647 Do you want to waste these people's time? 1047 01:23:42,726 --> 01:23:43,773 I'm not. 1048 01:23:43,894 --> 01:23:47,569 No, these people who got up here honestly and were brave... 1049 01:23:47,648 --> 01:23:49,901 Well, I could make something up, I could make something up. 1050 01:23:49,983 --> 01:23:52,486 Is that what you... Is that what you want me to do? 1051 01:23:52,694 --> 01:23:55,698 (STAMMERING) Isn't that a sin, too? 1052 01:23:55,781 --> 01:23:59,001 I mean, if thoughts are a sin, I ask God's forgiveness for that, 1053 01:23:59,076 --> 01:24:01,204 but I'm not making anything up. 1054 01:24:03,038 --> 01:24:04,039 (SIGHS) 1055 01:24:05,999 --> 01:24:07,546 Okay, then. Okay. 1056 01:24:10,462 --> 01:24:11,634 Lie chair. 1057 01:24:12,965 --> 01:24:16,936 I just want to make use of some of this anger. 1058 01:24:19,096 --> 01:24:23,647 Uh, wait. Guys, just sit. Just stay where you are, okay? 1059 01:24:23,725 --> 01:24:25,352 Here he is, Jared. 1060 01:24:26,019 --> 01:24:27,612 Your father is sitting here 1061 01:24:27,688 --> 01:24:31,568 and I want you to tell him how affected you are by him. 1062 01:24:31,650 --> 01:24:34,449 And how angry you are. 1063 01:24:34,528 --> 01:24:37,327 Tell him how you hate him for the things that he's... The way... 1064 01:24:37,447 --> 01:24:40,121 You can sit down. Sit down. But I'm not angry. 1065 01:24:40,200 --> 01:24:41,747 Yeah, I know. And he's done things 1066 01:24:41,827 --> 01:24:43,374 that upset me, but... But you are. 1067 01:24:43,495 --> 01:24:46,044 You're angry, but you don't... He's let me down... 1068 01:24:46,123 --> 01:24:47,340 Why do I have to be angry? 1069 01:24:47,457 --> 01:24:49,755 Just sit. 1070 01:24:50,043 --> 01:24:51,636 Sit down. I'm not a dog. 1071 01:24:51,753 --> 01:24:53,972 I know. And I don't think anyone is responsible 1072 01:24:54,047 --> 01:24:57,267 for me, so I don't see how it's gonna help picking someone to blame or hate. 1073 01:24:57,467 --> 01:25:01,017 If you don't hate anyone, Jared, then where is all this anger coming from? 1074 01:25:01,096 --> 01:25:02,348 Because you're making me angry. 1075 01:25:02,472 --> 01:25:04,440 There you go! I want you to use that! 1076 01:25:04,516 --> 01:25:07,565 I'm not gonna pretend I hate my father. I don't hate my father. 1077 01:25:07,644 --> 01:25:09,396 Jared, you do. 1078 01:25:09,479 --> 01:25:12,153 You don't know me! You're all crazy! 1079 01:25:12,232 --> 01:25:13,654 All of you! Hey! I didn't... 1080 01:25:13,734 --> 01:25:15,202 Just... Jared. 1081 01:25:15,277 --> 01:25:17,245 You're in my chair. 1082 01:25:17,404 --> 01:25:19,577 There you go! I hate you! Jared! 1083 01:25:20,490 --> 01:25:21,958 But how does that help? 1084 01:25:22,034 --> 01:25:23,081 Jared! 1085 01:25:24,286 --> 01:25:25,287 (VICTOR CLEARS TH ROAT) 1086 01:25:29,291 --> 01:25:30,588 (PANTING) 1087 01:25:34,004 --> 01:25:35,176 Jared! 1088 01:25:35,255 --> 01:25:36,802 Who's in the front office? 1089 01:25:42,095 --> 01:25:45,395 Jared! Son, let's talk. Son. 1090 01:25:47,976 --> 01:25:49,728 Hey! Michael! 1091 01:25:50,979 --> 01:25:52,401 MICHAEL: Hey, hey! Give it to me! 1092 01:25:54,524 --> 01:25:56,652 JARED: I want my things and I want to go. Jared. 1093 01:25:57,027 --> 01:25:58,574 VICTOR: Michael! Hey! 1094 01:25:58,654 --> 01:25:59,951 (BOTH GRUNTING) 1095 01:26:00,197 --> 01:26:03,246 Hey! Michael! Get out of the room! 1096 01:26:03,325 --> 01:26:04,577 Come here, son. 1097 01:26:08,080 --> 01:26:09,206 Jared! 1098 01:26:09,373 --> 01:26:13,549 Hey, listen. What you're having is a natural response, okay. 1099 01:26:13,627 --> 01:26:14,879 (JARED PANTING) Just... Just breathe. 1100 01:26:17,297 --> 01:26:18,423 (VICTOR SIGHS) 1101 01:26:23,887 --> 01:26:26,436 Jared! JARED: Hey, I just need a minute. 1102 01:26:27,599 --> 01:26:29,772 Just go away. Take a minute, okay. 1103 01:26:32,521 --> 01:26:33,773 (DIALING) 1104 01:26:37,067 --> 01:26:38,068 (SOBBING) 1105 01:26:38,151 --> 01:26:40,119 Please pick up, Morn. 1106 01:26:41,279 --> 01:26:42,952 NANCY: Jared? Mom... 1107 01:26:43,031 --> 01:26:46,001 Jared? I need you to come get me, please. 1108 01:26:46,118 --> 01:26:47,495 What's the matter? What's the matter? 1109 01:26:47,577 --> 01:26:49,204 Please, I'm in trouble. What... 1110 01:26:49,329 --> 01:26:50,330 What's happened? 1111 01:26:50,455 --> 01:26:54,176 Best thing that we can do is probably ease him back into the session. 1112 01:26:54,459 --> 01:26:55,927 Hey, son. I called my mom 1113 01:26:56,002 --> 01:26:57,174 and she's coming to get me. 1114 01:26:57,671 --> 01:26:59,048 VICTOR: Listen, you gotta understand 1115 01:26:59,214 --> 01:27:01,091 what you're going through right now is just a moment. 1116 01:27:01,174 --> 01:27:02,926 A moment? A moment? Okay. 1117 01:27:03,009 --> 01:27:04,135 And I feel exactly what you're going through. 1118 01:27:04,219 --> 01:27:07,063 I think that you and I should just get everybody gone and we just talk. 1119 01:27:07,180 --> 01:27:08,557 I don't want to talk. I want to go. 1120 01:27:08,807 --> 01:27:10,901 Well, Jared, I don't want you to. 1121 01:27:11,393 --> 01:27:12,690 I want you to stay. 1122 01:27:12,894 --> 01:27:14,988 Well, (STUTTERS) I read the rules 1123 01:27:15,063 --> 01:27:17,441 and none of them say you can stop me from leaving. 1124 01:27:17,524 --> 01:27:19,618 I wouldn't. Can you just check where Brandon is, please? 1125 01:27:19,693 --> 01:27:23,573 And if you or anyone puts their hands on me, I have witnesses. 1126 01:27:23,655 --> 01:27:25,453 Nobody's going to put their hands on you. 1127 01:27:25,699 --> 01:27:27,246 Why would anybody do that? 1128 01:27:27,409 --> 01:27:28,626 Come sit. 1129 01:27:29,077 --> 01:27:31,079 We're gonna wait for your mom, okay? 1130 01:27:31,329 --> 01:27:33,923 Jesus, our Savior, please focus on Jared. 1131 01:27:34,124 --> 01:27:37,219 Let him see the strength and courage that he needs. 1132 01:27:37,294 --> 01:27:40,298 I want you to fill him right now with all the wisdom of everybody in this room 1133 01:27:40,380 --> 01:27:43,509 to show him how much they love him and how much they care about him. 1134 01:27:43,675 --> 01:27:44,927 Be strong! His journey 1135 01:27:45,010 --> 01:27:48,560 into the fire that he's walking into and what he's willing to face. 1136 01:27:48,638 --> 01:27:50,356 You are a man. May you open his eyes 1137 01:27:50,432 --> 01:27:52,059 and see the wisdom that you have... 1138 01:27:52,142 --> 01:27:53,359 NANCY: Jared! Mom! 1139 01:27:53,518 --> 01:27:55,236 Jared, honey, what's happened? Mom! 1140 01:27:55,353 --> 01:27:57,151 Hey, hey! Sit back down! Mom, they're not letting me go! 1141 01:27:57,230 --> 01:27:59,449 It's not that we're not letting him go. 1142 01:27:59,608 --> 01:28:01,656 Come on. Open this door. VICTOR: Just hold on, Jared. 1143 01:28:01,735 --> 01:28:04,204 Mrs. Eamons, my name is Victor Sykes. NANCY: VVho are you? 1144 01:28:04,279 --> 01:28:05,531 We spoke on the telephone. 1145 01:28:05,614 --> 01:28:07,082 I don't remember that. Open the door. 1146 01:28:07,157 --> 01:28:08,704 Well, I spoke with your husband a couple times. 1147 01:28:08,784 --> 01:28:12,004 Jared's just having a moment here borne out of the role-playing exercise. 1148 01:28:12,078 --> 01:28:15,332 No, no! That's not true. Mom, tell him to open the door. 1149 01:28:15,457 --> 01:28:18,552 VICTOR: Slow down. Enough. Open the door now, Mr. Sykes. 1150 01:28:18,627 --> 01:28:21,631 Can we just all... I said open the door now! 1151 01:28:21,713 --> 01:28:24,136 I'm gonna call the police if you don't open this door. 1152 01:28:24,257 --> 01:28:26,180 VICTOR: There is no need for that. BRANDQNI SIOW d0wn. Right HOW. 1153 01:28:26,259 --> 01:28:27,602 Let him go! (BRANDON GASPS) 1154 01:28:28,595 --> 01:28:29,938 You all right, honey? 1155 01:28:30,263 --> 01:28:31,389 Just let him go. 1156 01:28:35,519 --> 01:28:36,987 VICTOR: I just... I think that... 1157 01:28:38,647 --> 01:28:40,695 Jared, come on. 1158 01:28:40,816 --> 01:28:44,571 I just... I think it's more important for his 1159 01:28:44,778 --> 01:28:46,780 development right now that he... 1160 01:28:46,863 --> 01:28:49,582 NANCY: Don't even listen to him. Get in the car. Get in the car. 1161 01:28:52,452 --> 01:28:54,250 VICTOR: You're gonna ruin that child. 1162 01:28:54,371 --> 01:28:57,295 What are your actual qualifications, Mr. Sykes? 1163 01:28:57,374 --> 01:28:58,921 I never asked. Hmm? 1164 01:28:59,668 --> 01:29:02,638 Are you a doctor? Are you? Psychologist? 1165 01:29:02,712 --> 01:29:04,840 I mean, a proper one? Are you? 1166 01:29:06,800 --> 01:29:07,892 No. 1167 01:29:08,802 --> 01:29:10,224 I didn't think so. 1168 01:29:10,679 --> 01:29:11,680 (SIGHS) 1169 01:29:13,223 --> 01:29:14,645 Shame on you! 1170 01:29:16,393 --> 01:29:18,066 Shame on me, too. 1171 01:29:18,144 --> 01:29:20,067 Shame on you! 1172 01:29:48,133 --> 01:29:49,476 SERVER: Can I help you? 1173 01:29:49,593 --> 01:29:51,766 JARED: Uh, I'm not sure if I'm staying or going. 1174 01:29:51,845 --> 01:29:53,392 SERVER: All right. Well, let me know. 1175 01:30:05,108 --> 01:30:06,860 I talked to your father. 1176 01:30:08,528 --> 01:30:10,075 He wants you to go back. 1177 01:30:10,488 --> 01:30:12,365 (BOTH SIGH) 1178 01:30:17,704 --> 01:30:21,754 I told him we'll see him at home. I told him you're not going back. 1179 01:30:25,879 --> 01:30:27,301 You know that night 1180 01:30:28,882 --> 01:30:31,556 when Pastor Wilkes and Jim came to the house? 1181 01:30:33,178 --> 01:30:36,432 Those men decided what to do with you and I just... 1182 01:30:37,140 --> 01:30:40,565 I fell into line, like I usually do. 1183 01:30:43,396 --> 01:30:46,115 They say sometimes you gotta hurt a child in order to help them 1184 01:30:46,191 --> 01:30:48,034 and that may be so with some things, 1185 01:30:49,110 --> 01:30:51,954 but a mother knows when something isn't right. 1186 01:30:52,989 --> 01:30:55,617 And I knew in my bones 1187 01:30:56,618 --> 01:30:58,495 this wasn't hurting to help. 1188 01:31:01,122 --> 01:31:05,343 I was just letting you down and I kept my mouth shut. 1189 01:31:09,422 --> 01:31:12,301 And I will always regret that. 1190 01:31:16,179 --> 01:31:18,352 But I can do a different thing now. 1191 01:31:18,682 --> 01:31:20,650 Now that I have a chance. 1192 01:31:26,106 --> 01:31:27,983 I'll handle your father. 1193 01:31:30,026 --> 01:31:32,996 He can fall into line with me for a change. 1194 01:31:39,452 --> 01:31:43,298 Some folk, they don't go to church for the right reasons. 1195 01:31:47,794 --> 01:31:51,048 Now, you know the type of person I'm talking about. 1196 01:31:54,134 --> 01:31:55,351 They just turn up. 1197 01:32:00,515 --> 01:32:04,110 They don't use every day of their Christian life 1198 01:32:06,354 --> 01:32:09,904 to praise the Lord and help bring others to His word. 1199 01:32:11,484 --> 01:32:14,283 It might be your neighbor, might be your friend, 1200 01:32:14,529 --> 01:32:17,123 it might be just a face you only ever see at church. 1201 01:32:17,615 --> 01:32:18,867 They just turn up. 1202 01:32:19,826 --> 01:32:21,954 I will tell something that I know. 1203 01:32:22,162 --> 01:32:25,757 Just turning up to church does not make you a Christian. 1204 01:32:25,874 --> 01:32:27,091 CONGREGATION MEMBER: Yes, sir. Amen. 1205 01:32:27,959 --> 01:32:30,803 MARSHALL: Study the Bible. Study His word. 1206 01:32:31,379 --> 01:32:32,801 I can guarantee you, 1207 01:32:33,798 --> 01:32:35,516 every question you have, 1208 01:32:37,218 --> 01:32:41,348 you gonna find an answer in this book. 1209 01:32:41,848 --> 01:32:42,974 CONGREGATION MEMBER: Amen. 1210 01:32:45,602 --> 01:32:46,899 (DOORBELL RINGS) 1211 01:32:52,275 --> 01:32:57,782 (KNOCKING ON DOOR) Honey, um, do you know a boy, Cameron Van Heusen? 1212 01:32:59,365 --> 01:33:01,083 Yeah. Is he here? 1213 01:33:01,576 --> 01:33:03,670 No. No, no. That's the police. 1214 01:33:05,163 --> 01:33:10,044 Apparently, this boy Cameron killed himself last night. 1215 01:33:19,761 --> 01:33:21,889 They want to ask you some questions. 1216 01:34:53,855 --> 01:34:55,198 (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING) 1217 01:34:55,356 --> 01:34:56,983 (ALL GREETING) 1218 01:34:58,276 --> 01:35:00,074 Hey! How you doing? Good. 1219 01:35:00,153 --> 01:35:02,201 Nice to see you! I'm good. 1220 01:35:04,073 --> 01:35:05,074 I'm good. Here. 1221 01:35:05,158 --> 01:35:07,502 Yeah, I think they're in the dishwasher. 1222 01:35:08,119 --> 01:35:10,542 Come on, Chris. Join us. 1223 01:35:11,122 --> 01:35:12,339 WOMAN: Get out of the kitchen. 1224 01:35:12,415 --> 01:35:14,008 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 1225 01:35:22,675 --> 01:35:24,177 I didn't even feel it. 1226 01:35:27,388 --> 01:35:28,560 (JARED SIGHS) 1227 01:35:43,488 --> 01:35:44,614 (MESSAGE ALERT CHIMES) 1228 01:35:49,786 --> 01:35:50,787 (CHUCKLES) 1229 01:35:51,079 --> 01:35:52,080 (MESSAGE ALERT CHIMES) 1230 01:36:19,315 --> 01:36:20,316 (TYPING) 1231 01:36:27,490 --> 01:36:28,787 (CELL PHONE VIBRATING) 1232 01:36:29,867 --> 01:36:30,868 Mom... 1233 01:36:30,952 --> 01:36:33,546 NANCY". I gave it to him, he has it, and he'll read it. 1234 01:36:33,997 --> 01:36:35,214 He knows he has to. 1235 01:36:36,207 --> 01:36:39,928 Mom, it's important he reads it, can you just put him on? 1236 01:36:40,962 --> 01:36:43,761 I'm calling you from Little Rock, I'm with Aunt Mary, so... 1237 01:36:43,840 --> 01:36:45,683 Wait. Why? 1238 01:36:46,426 --> 01:36:48,269 You should just call him at home. 1239 01:36:49,012 --> 01:36:50,013 What happened? 1240 01:36:50,722 --> 01:36:53,942 Nothing, she just needed some help with the shop, so I came down here, 1241 01:36:54,017 --> 01:36:55,815 and I'm driving back tonight, I'm... 1242 01:36:56,811 --> 01:36:58,279 I mean, nothing. Nothing is wrong. 1243 01:37:28,301 --> 01:37:30,144 NANCY: Seriously, nothing is wrong. 1244 01:37:30,636 --> 01:37:32,684 Why didn't you tell me you were coming? 1245 01:37:33,556 --> 01:37:34,648 Is he here? 1246 01:37:35,183 --> 01:37:36,309 He left. 1247 01:37:37,268 --> 01:37:40,317 It is Sunday, if it's urgent, you're gonna have to go to church. 1248 01:37:42,065 --> 01:37:43,157 Why aren't you there? 1249 01:37:43,775 --> 01:37:45,243 Why aren't you at church? 1250 01:37:48,321 --> 01:37:52,246 I go, sometimes. I support your dad and... 1251 01:37:52,950 --> 01:37:55,044 Mom, what's going on with you two? 1252 01:37:58,247 --> 01:37:59,464 Jared, it's... 1253 01:38:00,583 --> 01:38:01,675 He knows. 1254 01:38:02,251 --> 01:38:03,844 I can't be around the... 1255 01:38:07,548 --> 01:38:11,018 I love God, God loves me. 1256 01:38:13,888 --> 01:38:15,435 And I love my son. 1257 01:38:16,307 --> 01:38:17,684 That simple. 1258 01:38:19,394 --> 01:38:21,738 For your father, it's a little more complicated. 1259 01:38:23,481 --> 01:38:25,154 I wish it wasn't, but it is. 1260 01:38:26,984 --> 01:38:27,985 (SIGHS) 1261 01:38:31,197 --> 01:38:32,244 (CAR DOOR CLOSES) 1262 01:38:51,551 --> 01:38:52,723 (EXHALES) 1263 01:39:02,270 --> 01:39:05,649 Did you hear about the article I've got coming out in the Times? 1264 01:39:07,942 --> 01:39:09,285 Do you know what it's about? 1265 01:39:09,652 --> 01:39:11,370 I won't get into a fight. 1266 01:39:12,738 --> 01:39:13,955 Your mother told me, son. 1267 01:39:14,031 --> 01:39:15,123 It's not a fight. 1268 01:39:15,533 --> 01:39:18,787 I'm just doing the right thing. I'm letting you know. 1269 01:39:21,330 --> 01:39:22,456 I've written more, 1270 01:39:22,540 --> 01:39:25,669 and the publishers are talking about me putting together a whole book. 1271 01:39:27,879 --> 01:39:30,052 You don't need to read any of it. 1272 01:39:31,632 --> 01:39:34,431 I just needed you to know that it might be out there. 1273 01:39:34,510 --> 01:39:35,682 Well, 1274 01:39:37,054 --> 01:39:38,146 now I know. 1275 01:39:38,222 --> 01:39:40,395 But it might be good for you to read. 1276 01:39:41,309 --> 01:39:45,314 Because you never really asked what went on there. 1277 01:39:46,230 --> 01:39:49,074 You never really knew the staff or... 1278 01:39:49,150 --> 01:39:50,367 You're right. Or... 1279 01:39:50,443 --> 01:39:51,444 You're right. 1280 01:39:52,153 --> 01:39:57,034 When the situation came up, I did what I've often done in my life. 1281 01:39:58,743 --> 01:40:00,996 I sought the counsel of wiser men 1282 01:40:02,371 --> 01:40:03,748 and I followed their advice. 1283 01:40:05,082 --> 01:40:06,379 What would you do now? 1284 01:40:07,585 --> 01:40:08,962 Now that you are running things? 1285 01:40:09,086 --> 01:40:10,303 Enough. 1286 01:40:14,675 --> 01:40:15,676 Good night. 1287 01:40:26,729 --> 01:40:28,026 (SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY) 1288 01:40:28,105 --> 01:40:29,106 (DOOR OPENS) 1289 01:40:46,082 --> 01:40:47,550 For me. 1290 01:41:39,844 --> 01:41:41,141 Is there something you need help with? 1291 01:41:41,220 --> 01:41:43,143 Because you know I gotta make my flight. 1292 01:41:43,222 --> 01:41:45,224 Yeah, now, this was going to be for Christmas. 1293 01:41:45,808 --> 01:41:48,277 But, uh, you know, your mother tells me 1294 01:41:48,352 --> 01:41:50,446 you like to drive upstate sometimes to write. 1295 01:41:50,605 --> 01:41:52,699 Dad, I live in New York. I don't need a car. 1296 01:41:53,983 --> 01:41:57,829 She also tells me you like to write by hand 1297 01:41:57,903 --> 01:41:59,371 before you use your computer. 1298 01:42:00,489 --> 01:42:01,490 Just like me. 1299 01:42:03,284 --> 01:42:08,290 This pen is made from a cedar tree grown in Israel. 1300 01:42:10,750 --> 01:42:11,922 Guided me. 1301 01:42:12,543 --> 01:42:15,092 I've written every sermon that I have ever delivered 1302 01:42:15,171 --> 01:42:17,720 in this new church with this pen. 1303 01:42:21,302 --> 01:42:22,554 One writer to another. 1304 01:42:35,441 --> 01:42:36,988 I don't want to pretend anymore. 1305 01:42:40,071 --> 01:42:41,823 We don't need to spend time together. 1306 01:42:42,698 --> 01:42:43,745 We don't need to speak 1307 01:42:43,824 --> 01:42:46,168 unless we're going to talk to each other properly. 1308 01:42:47,078 --> 01:42:48,079 Like... 1309 01:42:48,287 --> 01:42:51,882 (STUTTERS) You've done some things that have really hurt me. 1310 01:42:53,376 --> 01:42:58,177 Like you never asked if there was more to my story at college. 1311 01:43:00,466 --> 01:43:02,468 You never asked if I was okay. 1312 01:43:04,095 --> 01:43:06,644 You were too focused on how it affected you. 1313 01:43:10,518 --> 01:43:14,694 There's so many things that we've never spoken about. 1314 01:43:15,898 --> 01:43:17,571 And I don't know if we ever will. 1315 01:43:18,526 --> 01:43:19,527 Yeah. 1316 01:43:26,784 --> 01:43:28,752 You know, all this was going to be yours. 1317 01:43:29,954 --> 01:43:35,085 I mean, it still will be, but I meant to run and to make a living from. 1318 01:43:38,921 --> 01:43:40,093 I understand. 1319 01:43:41,382 --> 01:43:42,850 We all got our own paths. 1320 01:43:45,052 --> 01:43:49,148 The truth is I want you to do well. 1321 01:43:50,433 --> 01:43:52,356 I want you to have a great life. 1322 01:43:53,102 --> 01:43:54,103 I love you. 1323 01:43:56,188 --> 01:43:57,986 But I can't pretend either. 1324 01:43:59,442 --> 01:44:01,240 There are things I disagree with. 1325 01:44:02,528 --> 01:44:05,452 And I'll admit, I'll be honest, I'm, you know... 1326 01:44:05,531 --> 01:44:10,037 lam being prideful when I resent the fact that I may never be a grandparent. 1327 01:44:10,119 --> 01:44:11,621 Now, that's just the truth. 1328 01:44:12,496 --> 01:44:15,124 It's hard for me to admit that I have hurt you. 1329 01:44:17,168 --> 01:44:20,468 And that with my beliefs and with all that's gone on, 1330 01:44:20,546 --> 01:44:23,971 I understand I may have set myself up to lose you. 1331 01:44:25,092 --> 01:44:30,690 And I've had to ask myself and God if I'm ready for that. 1332 01:44:38,481 --> 01:44:41,735 I do not want to lose you. 1333 01:44:42,735 --> 01:44:44,328 Well, it doesn't feel like that. 1334 01:44:45,154 --> 01:44:48,909 I'm sick of avoiding you. I'm sick of talking about nothing. 1335 01:44:49,366 --> 01:44:50,663 I'm sick Of it. 1336 01:44:51,702 --> 01:44:54,046 I'm gay and I'm your son. 1337 01:44:55,289 --> 01:44:57,587 And neither of those things are going to change. 1338 01:44:58,375 --> 01:45:00,298 Okay, so let's deal with that. 1339 01:45:00,377 --> 01:45:01,970 Or let's call it a day. 1340 01:45:03,005 --> 01:45:06,851 Both of us would be okay, but that would be a shame. 1341 01:45:11,096 --> 01:45:13,144 I'm not changing. There's no changing me. 1342 01:45:15,184 --> 01:45:16,436 God knows I tried. 1343 01:45:17,770 --> 01:45:19,272 So, if you mean it, 1344 01:45:20,356 --> 01:45:21,608 if you really mean that, 1345 01:45:24,693 --> 01:45:26,240 and you're not ready to lose me, 1346 01:45:29,490 --> 01:45:32,539 then I'm sorry, but you're going to have to be the one to change. 1347 01:45:34,620 --> 01:45:35,963 I understand. 1348 01:45:39,166 --> 01:45:40,338 I am going to try. 1349 01:45:47,174 --> 01:45:48,300 (VOICE BREAKING) I'll try. 1350 01:45:50,928 --> 01:45:52,271 I gotta get going- 1351 01:46:18,414 --> 01:46:19,540 Dad, 1352 01:46:20,374 --> 01:46:23,048 I've invited Mom to my place for Christmas. 1353 01:46:23,335 --> 01:46:24,336 Yeah. 1354 01:46:26,505 --> 01:46:28,007 You're welcome to come, too.